carousel of maybe
a new sickness or a new gratitude and it goes back and forth each second and I wonder if I need a different, stronger chemical to calibrate my brain there is...
shudder
01/08/26 everything is so soft i continually recalibrate it’s August now i’m telling him about how i’m trying to decide what the project is really about, is...
the sun
19/07/26 I tell him the things I have learned about the places I thought I could trust, he tries to listen his body feels strong maybe there’s nothing I can...
cloudy
12/07/26 he was right about opening the curtains, I needed the light and to see the world. I felt unsettled when he left and it was tempting to climb into an...
u tell me bb
28/06/26 she moves her expectations into a corner of the room and she covers them with a blanket, tells them: go to sleep bb she notices her loneliness like...
Notes on Love
06/06/2026 I took a photo of the moon on the night we met, thinking I might need a memento in the future.I feel the self slipping away again and then I catch...
the creation of time
17/05/26 I have wanted to be wrapped tightly in perpetual softness. Although, I do need to see the real people moving through the real streets through the...
this is all I can do
09/05/26 Prudence is rare but it does require unscathed conversations. When the unforeseen circumstances can no longer afford a demotion, it’s easy to be...
all due respect
02/05/26 more rewarding more personalized more safe in a healthy and social way Emotional needs professional needs and permutations I am here for you in this...
What's the catch
26/04/26 Enjoying a generous search For an optimistic story The rotten men and the common friends They are just a little safe Slowly, tonight Pick me up.
Notes on Survival
12/04/26 How does it feel to earn income from selling my art?How does it feel to earn income from selling my body?How does it feel to earn income from...
hand of god
01/04/26 I dreamed about a long hallway and unnerving beings and that I could fly but flying wasn’t easy, I had to push very hard against the air. I am used...
the first conversation
26/03/26 Before I feel nervous about talking to D on the phone later. I hate asking anyone to help me with anything but he has agreed to the conversation and...
surveillance
17/03/26 there can be such pain and frustration in not being witnessed. anything can be done in your life if someone is watching. desperation to be listened...
virtue
15/03/26 Traditional by design Exactly like the pleasure you’re used to Cupid, connection, crucial commonalities You’ve been in the real world hundreds of...
welling-up
07/03/26 Without a plan All you’ve done is negotiate You should not get used to that feeling Greedy butterfly Prolong the clock and drift to sleep Lo and...
wonderful
01/03/26 for the last month I have probably cried every day. I think the iron infusion fucked my body up. not that I wasn’t already crying a lot before that...
disgust
28/02/26 a drunk woman walking past the bus stop pauses to touch my hair, keeps touching it, telling me it’s beautiful. I look down and see a decapitated...
the most important thing is
20/02/26 a girl who is already losing can tend to dream Dream Girl Dream Suddenly a good baby She may occasionally Wish to evolve Into a complacent fantasy...
irresistibility
16/02/26 I understood all the things I could have done to create an irresistibility, so why didn’t I do them? Well, the daylight was hurting my eyes and to...