12/07/26

he was right about opening the curtains, I needed the light and to see the world. I felt unsettled when he left and it was tempting to climb into an old memory and sleep there for the afternoon. when he texted later telling me sad things, I wished I could protect him. when we interact, I don’t need to think too often about power and that’s a relief. reminding myself to let things breathe and struggle through their infancy before I roll my eyes hard and dismiss them. reminding myself to observe now and conclude later. he is not angry that I was alive for a while before I knew he existed and this really does get to my heart.