I was reviewing some of my older drawings and writings, and to be honest, I expected my older art to be a lot better than my newer stuff. I sometimes had this nagging doubt in the back of my mind that maybe my newer work isn’t as complex or advanced as what I did back then. I went through different challenges and struggles through my life, from mental ones to social media struggles, and so I thought maybe my art suffered from that.
I was pleasantly surprised when I returned to my work, though. I saw that my drawing style and art hadn’t really changed as much as I thought! In my drawings, I still used the same approach I do today: they were really straightforward and simply drawn, and the overall style didn’t change. In my past writing, there were sometimes more details and longer character descriptions, but again, many of the themes and my writing style are similar to what I do today. I still go deep into the emotions of my characters, and I still have the habit of giving them unusual names and multi-cultural backgrounds. I also use inspiration from my dreams and visions for my art, just as I did back then.
I honestly feel a lot of gratitude that things didn’t change as much as I thought. I’m beginning to realize that the story I told myself about my older work being superior was just my own perception. It isn’t necessarily reality. It’s true that I had less challenges going on in my life back then, but that doesn’t mean my creative side disappeared because of them. In fact, it was really a relief to see my art didn’t change that much.
It leads me to wonder how many artists put themselves under unnecessary stress by comparing their past work with what they do today. It doesn’t help that critics sometimes say the later work of an artist, writer, or musician doesn’t capture what came before it. But I think sometimes when we take that viewpoint, we miss out on how someone’s work can mature with time. Instead of weakening, it can actually grow stronger.