On Monday night, I was having fun as I attended the Israeli Consulate’s joint celebration of Israel’s 78th Independence Day and America 250. I skipped a movie to be there—if you’re expecting a review of Supergirl, you won’t find one—and was joined by 500 guests from across the Midwest, including business leaders, elected officials, faith leaders, and valued members of the community. Suffice it to say, it was a fun evening full of friends, food, and celebration.

And then Tuesday happened.

It’s not an understatement to say just how much antisemitism has worsened since October 7. But on Tuesday, I feel like I experienced the worst of it in nearly three years.

Leftists do not want to engage in conversation. They want Zionists to know that they do not see us as people. Nor do they want to be in a coalition with us. Since October 7, they have targeted, abused, and harassed the Jewish community with the same baseless allegations and antisemitic blood libels. It’s both infuriating and exhausting.

My mental health can only take so much of this vile abuse.

On Tuesday, someone posted an article that pointed out that Egypt and Iran want nothing to do with Pride Month during their World Cup soccer match, which just happens to coincide with what the Seattle community is calling a “Pride Match.” I posted something in response about how Israel is the only country in the Middle East that is supportive of its LGBTQ population. Obviously, it’s not perfect—no country is—but LGBTQ Israelis are not being arrested, prosecuted, or executed as is the case in Egypt and Iran. But leftists weren’t having any of it, and they wanted me to know it.

What’s even worse about this is how the cowards were hiding behind fake names, avatars, and handles. They couldn’t even have the decency to bully me—or other Zionists, for that matter—under their own names. I imagine the vast majority went all in on being anti-racists following the George Floyd murder and Black Lives Matter protests in 2020. But suffice it to say, somehow their version of anti-racism means being racist against Jews.

A lot of the hate is taking place on social media. But outside of the Jewish community and the allies that I see speaking out—I’m so grateful to the Black allies whom I see regularly speaking out against antisemitism on social media—it feels like so many people don’t care or pretend they don’t see it. If they can’t see it, they are either kidding themselves or are so full of delusions. I don’t know what else I can say. My lived experience speaks very differently.

In the past few days, the New York City mayor has spoken in dehumanizing rhetoric toward AIPAC, echoing centuries-old antisemitic tropes. In the same city, a cafe posted that they rejected Rep. Dan Goldman’s money because it was “probably coming from AIPAC.” It didn’t matter that he’s also endorsed by J Street. For antisemites, AIPAC has become a stand-in for Jews and is viewed no differently than J Street or Democratic Majority for Israel. I have my own issues with AIPAC going back to their 2022 endorsements of election deniers, but there is no denying the fact that AIPAC is being used in a derogatory manner.

It’s Pride Month. I’m an Orthodox Jewish transgender woman. But because I’m a proud Jew who doesn’t buy into a false antisemitic narrative, I am not welcome in LGBTQ spaces because too many of them exclude Jews. It’s alienating and ostracizing. If an LGBTQ space wants to have me, they have to accept my full identity, Zionism and all. If that’s too much for them, they can go about their lives without me.

I’m only going to two events during Pride Month, and the only reason why is because they are for Jews. If not for that, I wouldn’t be doing a single thing during Pride Month. I know I’m not alone in this. I’m just thankful to have an Orthodox community that welcomes me as a transgender woman.