if you feel alone

my mother disowned me
shortly after my father died
i know it’s not my fault

i thought i found a friend
in my husband’s mother
but it turns out that years and years
of her consumption of
hate-inducing fear-mongering political propaganda
on the fucking cesspit of the internet
has caused her to see the world so differently
that she has decided that it’s perfectly acceptable
to utter bigoted beliefs and
to spit racism
directly at me
i know it’s not my fault

the world can feel so dangerous
but last night i felt safety in the
calming scents and dim lights of my yoga studio
and i cried

i cried for the loss we all continue to feel
as the world and the people we thought we knew, seemingly
crumble and decompose around us

hold on to the ones you love
find safety if you can
and give yourself permission to grieve

and if you feel alone,
and if you feel scared,
remember
you can find me
in the weird wide web hole

weird

and he prays

what's up

wide

talent is everywhere, opportunity is not

the angine de poitrine argument for ubi

web

go explore

cursor camp

hole

protect him at all costs

neil the seal