Programming Note
After some ruminating, I’ve come to realize that the newsletter format is not befitting to my content. I’m not trying to push anything with my writing, other...
Keep Pushin'
Hi. My name is Andy, and I’m a pushover. “Hi, Andy!” I can’t remember when I became a pushover, but I feel like I’ve been doing it all of my life. I grew up...
Where Everybody Knows Your Name
I’ve mentioned previously that I have a nasty habit of buying tickets for shows that I end up not attending due to a lot of anticipatory anxiety. I had a...
More Buzzwords and Jingoism
I’ve been working hard this week on re-centering my thoughts, or at least letting the more agitating ones occupy so much of my bandwidth. For the most part,...
When I'm All Alone, Envy Me Most
I mentioned a few weeks back that I started seeing a new therapist. We’re still in the “getting to know me” stage, so we haven’t begun doing any deep dives...
I Must Not Think Bad Thoughts
(emailing this week’s dispatch roughly 14 hours early because I feel like it) Earlier this week, I had forgotten to take my nightly Lexapro. The next day, it...
Little PTO, You're Really Lookin' Fine
I usually don't decide what I will write about here until a day or two before I send out the email. I had already written 3 or 4 paragraphs today on this...
Sugar, Sugar
When I stopped drinking 10-plus years ago, I had a lot of voids to fill. I had some hobbies before I stopped, but they wouldn't be as enhanced as they were...
Will You Visit Me Please, If I Open My Door?
I've never been one to have vivid dreams. Or even remember what I dreamed of from night to night. But as I've aged, not only have my dreams become more...
Weirdo
I've always been the "weird one". I tried fitting in, but I was too weird for both the in-crowd and the out-crowd. And while the world tells you to "embrace...
I'll Be Your Mirror
I was never big on subscribing to newsletters until a few years ago when a sober acquaintance suggested I start reading The Small Bow, written by AJ...
Nothing Rhymes With "Cafeteria"
Not a whole lot going on around these parts this week. I've been doing a lot more things without screens, like crosswords and catching up on a book that I've...
The Road To Wellville
I won't bore you with the things I try to do in order to maintain a somewhat healthy patina. I dabble in a lot of usual exercises and elixirs that I'm...
🎶 Two Alleys, One Bad End 🎶
This was a short work week because of the President's Day holiday. I didn't take advantage of the day off by doing anything fun, like buying a new mattress....
Minutiae
I have my daughter every other weekend, and I try and plan something to do together when she's here - even if it's just running to Target or the grocery...
Putting The "'tude" In "Solitude"
I'm still trying to figure out the right feel for this newsletter (I refuse to say vibe). The approach I've taken thus far has been akin to keeping a public...
Tuned Out
My name is Andy, and I'm a recovering musician. What does that mean, exactly? Well, it's kind of a meandering tale that's low in drama, but ultimately lets...
Time Burglars
I have less patience with someone who doesn't wear a watch than with anyone else, for this type is not time-conscious. -Malcolm X I am a creature of habit....
Dreamatic
When I was 3 or 4 years old, I had a really vivid dream that I had one of those Mickey Mouse talking telephone toys. The ones where you'd dial a number that...
Window Seat
I have a window above the sink in my kitchen. And every morning while I'm making coffee, I catch myself staring out of it. I'm not looking at anything in...