it's been
one month since my last email. i think i’ve been burnt out. i woke up this morning with one word running through my mind: alacrity. i’ve been feeling anything but. something something being obsessed with what you lack.
i’ve been trying to break my phone addiction for months now. once i truly fathomed how much time i waste, and how i use it to calm me down via an immediate surge in dopamine, i was disturbed. and when i logged off my phone, i inextricably became untied from the music business. and when i forced myself to lock back into the music business, i became addicted to my phone. i became sad. i compare myself constantly to others. my heart hurts.
the path to success becomes muddier every day. i focus on the music and i lose access to online. i go online and i lose my soul. i lose my soul i lose the music.
if i resign myself to focus on the music no one will hear it.
a question of what is to be done. between a calling and a system that rewards anything but.
anyway, we’re nearing the end of I’m so charming…
pre-save birdspotting here. and see you at (le) poisson rouge on sat august 16th.