a DIY tour
(if you want info on the tour and the new single scroll past this paragraph to the poster and links)
it’s the sort of thing that has kept me up at night now for days and it’s the sort of thing that paralyzes you and it’s the sort of thing where genuinely i have the sort of tunnel vision that blinds and binds you to your own cells even though you have a life and a day job and other obligations such as ‘washing your hair’ or ‘cooking weeks-old groceries’ you need to conduct and it’s the sort of thing that you actually feel like you ~can ‘control’ as the world descends into hell and it’s the sort of thing that frankly, you forget once youre doing it because doing it is actually the most amazing thing in the world!!! and it’s the thing you love more than anything!!! and your body and mind and soul are one!!! and so you forget once you’re home and you want to do it again because you don’t want to be back at your boring life so you’re like let’s go on tour again!!! when you get home and then you plan another one 10 months from then and then you’re like two weeks, 10 days, 7 days, 5 days, tomorrow out from it and you can’t sleep because you’ve sent maybe 100? 200? 300? emails to press and they haven’t responded and you’re like if i used this verb instead of this verb or if i made this decision when i was 19 instead of this decision, would my existence now at 26 be recognized by the cultural gatekeepers and so-called tastemakers of america? and you’re negotiating what bass amp to bring and you’re measuring which one is smaller but packs the most punch! and where it’ll fit in the van that also has to fit 6 bodies, their gear, and suitcases, and then you sent 5 emails to one venue asking for a ticket link and you hadn’t heard from them since january but then today you get the ticket link!! and you’re like all is beautiful and nothing was hurt and the rush of dopamine from that could never compare to mindlessly scrolling but instead compares to when you send a risky text to someone you are starting to like and are awaiting a response but it’s risky because you’re expressing interest earnestly and the response doesn’t come for a while and you feel so embarrassed you take a shower to get clean from your sins of caring and give your phone to your best friend to surveil for the whole night because you don’t deserve to convene with the world because clearly the world doesn’t like you or doesn’t think you’re a person worth giving a response to but then finally the response comes the next morning and all is okay in the world you didn’t ruin your whole life and your existence isn’t actually a joke and fuck it yeah we planned a tour on our own!!! yeah basically that feeling is what it’s like to plan a DIY tour.
so we’re going on tour. in 6 days. tickets can be found here
do not let this great beautiful tour distract from the fact we are releasing our second single - clean - on FRIDAY and you can and should presave it via that link and you should because we need 20 more presaves for the little voice in my head to quiet down just a little and if you don’t presave i’ll have to rely on jenna to steal phones and do it.
i’m sorry i don’t mean to be this neurotic and i’m not spiraling on main (okay i am but) i’m using a free form style prose to convey the emotional reality of doing the thing we love most: which is play music and build community. we are very grateful for all of you and hope to see you and your loved ones at these shows - for that is why we do what we do especially in times like these.