Holding you so close during this time. It sounds like you are doing exactly what your body and soul need to process all of this deep grief.
The naps <3
My husband was diagnosed with brain cancer last year and underwent a craniotomy + really intense recovery, and we are still unsure of what it all means in terms of how much time we have. We sold our house shortly after he was diagnosed, moved into a rental home to get closer to my immediate family for support, and i stepped away from all of my income-generating ventures piece by piece in order to step more fully into caregiver mode. I felt a level of shame around how much I needed to nap during and after the height of everything, but in retrospect, I really do think it was what got me through it all.
What's working for me lately: I fell in love with horses when i was 10-years-old, got my own at 14 and proceeded to spend all of my spare time at the farm for the next 20 years. I lost my horse, Drayko, in the summer of 2023 and stepped away from that part of my life completely at that time. But, as I work to rebuild my life after everything that happened in 2025, I decided to take a job mucking stalls 3x a week. It makes zero sense financially as it pays peanuts, but even after 2 days, I can feel a little piece of my young self waking up and smiling.
Holding you so close during this time. It sounds like you are doing exactly what your body and soul need to process all of this deep grief.
The naps <3
My husband was diagnosed with brain cancer last year and underwent a craniotomy + really intense recovery, and we are still unsure of what it all means in terms of how much time we have. We sold our house shortly after he was diagnosed, moved into a rental home to get closer to my immediate family for support, and i stepped away from all of my income-generating ventures piece by piece in order to step more fully into caregiver mode. I felt a level of shame around how much I needed to nap during and after the height of everything, but in retrospect, I really do think it was what got me through it all.
What's working for me lately: I fell in love with horses when i was 10-years-old, got my own at 14 and proceeded to spend all of my spare time at the farm for the next 20 years. I lost my horse, Drayko, in the summer of 2023 and stepped away from that part of my life completely at that time. But, as I work to rebuild my life after everything that happened in 2025, I decided to take a job mucking stalls 3x a week. It makes zero sense financially as it pays peanuts, but even after 2 days, I can feel a little piece of my young self waking up and smiling.