Thank you for the reply Nic. These are all very helpful considerations for most people’s needs but not so much in my case — where I’ve never been able to match the feeling, never been able to shake it, truly never been able to go more than a few days without coming back to it, after what is now a decade of hoping it would fade. The sort of thing where at this point I kind of just have to assume it will always be there, etched into me somewhere. If I even knew how to find that feeling somewhere else, and I haven’t yet, I don’t think it would stop this one anyway. Not sure I can list-make my way out of this one haha.
But such is life I suppose. Not just in the sense that things are out of our control, but also that sometimes things just… are. I will always have this unquenched fire. There’s a blessing in something eternal, even if it can’t be shared.
Thank you for the reply Nic. These are all very helpful considerations for most people’s needs but not so much in my case — where I’ve never been able to match the feeling, never been able to shake it, truly never been able to go more than a few days without coming back to it, after what is now a decade of hoping it would fade. The sort of thing where at this point I kind of just have to assume it will always be there, etched into me somewhere. If I even knew how to find that feeling somewhere else, and I haven’t yet, I don’t think it would stop this one anyway. Not sure I can list-make my way out of this one haha.
But such is life I suppose. Not just in the sense that things are out of our control, but also that sometimes things just… are. I will always have this unquenched fire. There’s a blessing in something eternal, even if it can’t be shared.