Hello Friends,

Another month, another song. Not gonna lie, this was a tough month in my non-music life, and this recording feels perhaps a little, uh, looser than what I've done so far. But what good is a self-imposed deadline-centric project if one doesn't stick to it?

https://soundcloud.com/llydian/insomnia

I started writing this song last summer for my sister Emma, who suffers from insomnia, because I love her and insomnia sucks and my brain took over from there. I wrote the verses with a different chorus originally, and it wasn't quite clicking. I tossed out the meh parts and wrote a new chorus and it immediately felt 10000% times better. Re: the recording -- I feel good about what I was able to do with the time that I had, but I'm already thinking about ways to make it just a wee bit more sonically interesting in the last half. The answer is probably drums (the answer is usually drums). It just takes me forever to write and record a drum part. Next time! C'est la vie!

One last note: I'm starting to plan for playing live & touring in the next year(!). Thus, I want to "grow my audience" (insert your marketing language of choice lol) and would very much appreciate if you told everyone and anyone you know about this newsletter and/or any of my songs that you've ever liked at all. You know, no biggie.

See you in two weeks!

xoxoxoxo Lauren

Insomnia

What things call to you when sleep will not?Their shadows are dark

Circle back, the mind detached

Your eyes dry and hard

Time doesn't heal all wounds, it just gets you used to them

Stayed in your room, in your bed, in your house, can't get out of it

Maybe I can't be what you need

But I'm here for whatever

Maybe this not what you want

But I want you to feel better

The world we knew told us a lie

Took years to find out

Look how we grow toward the light,

it's alright if it's slowed down

It's stupid to say "don't be afraid" when I am, too

Time makes a mess, it's not precious, just something to live through

Maybe I can't be what you need to fix things

But I'm here till whenever

Maybe this not what you thought you'd want

But I want you to feel better

Not the surest thing, not a certainty

What is right now is not forever

Not a perfect fit, nothing close to it

But we're here, we're together

Nothing in the history of living things has ever been fair.