Ridiculous Opinions #212
Hey! Do you all remember that I made a movie? I don’t talk about it much because…well…I don’t know. But I made a 90 minute film called The Bean. It has sat on my computer for three years, completely finished, ready to go.
Such is the way with Randall P. Girdner. I make something and then I move on from it. The reasons for this are many. Part of it was the fact that, for a while, the film was a raw wound on my consciousness. The film was about the departure of my daughter for university at a time of grand uncertainty. That hurt, because I missed my daughter tremendously. The other reason was that Covid was still fresh in everyone’s memory and that, too, made things feel worse. I was editing the film when we were coming back to school wearing masks, having to social distance, and staying in our houses for inordinate periods of time. I thought it was best for me to just leave it be.
But yesterday, I had this almost comical calling to watch the movie. I don’t know why, but I was like, Dammit, I made a film. I wonder how it is! So, I finished school and sat down to watch it.
Lo and behold, it’s pretty good.
It’s interesting how time changes things. What felt like an exposed wound for a period of time has turned into something else with the passing of these years. Now, it feels like a time capsule; the capturing of a moment in history that, while still painful, is also significant. I am able to look at the movie with more objective eyes than was able to before, when I was closer to it.
So, I’m going to do something with it. I’m not sure what, just yet, but it’s going to be something. Maybe I’ll have a little premiere here in the city and invite some friends. Maybe I’ll try for a few festivals. Either way, I think it’s time for me to try to make it happen…
I say this because I have an idea for a movie that I’m thinking of making next summer, and it’s a doozy. But I might need your help with it…
Stay tuned…
