"I used to think this was a kind of love I had to earn, or prove myself for."
Oh, how this hit.
The hubs is my Katy. For almost a decade and a half, he has been predicting my needs and loving me in both quiet and loud ways. For almost a decade and a half, I have been doing the same. Both of us get an asterisk beside that saying *as much as we would allow. We are both survivors of camp "must earn and prove and be worth of love". That means, of course, that we slip and tell the other that we can handle it, because we feel unworthy. But mostly, we allow the love. It's beautiful.
I'm thrilled you have this. I'm thrilled people showed up for you in the Little ways and the Big ways that matter so much in life and in planning an event. <3
"I used to think this was a kind of love I had to earn, or prove myself for." Oh, how this hit. The hubs is my Katy. For almost a decade and a half, he has been predicting my needs and loving me in both quiet and loud ways. For almost a decade and a half, I have been doing the same. Both of us get an asterisk beside that saying *as much as we would allow. We are both survivors of camp "must earn and prove and be worth of love". That means, of course, that we slip and tell the other that we can handle it, because we feel unworthy. But mostly, we allow the love. It's beautiful. I'm thrilled you have this. I'm thrilled people showed up for you in the Little ways and the Big ways that matter so much in life and in planning an event. <3