It feels weirdly personal to comment on this here, a place that (I assume) may be public. But Betts, wow. My heart aches. But also I'm proud. Because you recognized what your body needed--to confront the feelings and hard times rather than disassociate and push through.
One of my favorite quotes from Juno comes to mind "Somebody else is going to find a precious blessing from Jesus in this garbage dump of a situation."
Maybe no fitting at all but maybe there's something better on the other side, even if it's just Future Betts healed from all this trauma, reunited with her son by her side.
Keep making space for the hard things and keep writing. <3 I don't want to close this with toxic positivity or crap like "It will get better!" so I'll just leave with you with this -- what you've gone through is terrible and you didn't deserve it and neither did your kids.
It feels weirdly personal to comment on this here, a place that (I assume) may be public. But Betts, wow. My heart aches. But also I'm proud. Because you recognized what your body needed--to confront the feelings and hard times rather than disassociate and push through.
One of my favorite quotes from Juno comes to mind "Somebody else is going to find a precious blessing from Jesus in this garbage dump of a situation."
Maybe no fitting at all but maybe there's something better on the other side, even if it's just Future Betts healed from all this trauma, reunited with her son by her side.
Keep making space for the hard things and keep writing. <3 I don't want to close this with toxic positivity or crap like "It will get better!" so I'll just leave with you with this -- what you've gone through is terrible and you didn't deserve it and neither did your kids.