très riches heures xi
when my son was very small he had two ways of denoting events in the past: they happened ‘you know, last time’ (near past) or ‘a long time ago, when i was...
bad together
i have imagined you there out west where no one knows your story: free to make a new one, or none at all if that’s what you wanted. like everything else...
exegesis
music, travel, love, change, loss, hope, music. can I have your autograph/he said to the fat blonde actress[1] i have an approach to travel preparation which...
preci sjede na ćilima
in this image our words are doing the circle dance, the one you see at weddings, or other feasts — I know you know the one, i know that you do it too....
dispatch from the mother country
little note: it will not have escaped you that i sometimes/often write some cursed things about how my mother is falling apart, and what it is like to...
très riches heures x
elephants call each other by name, study finds sometimes something strikes you just so: the way the light of late afternoon streams through a window perhaps...
happy anniversary to the wolf
i saw grinning on the shoulder of highway 17 near ignace that one time i believe you are still out there in some kind of way, just as i am. i think i...
godzilla key version 1
remember dichotomous keys? this isn’t really one. at any moment in time i promise you there are at least 17 of my brain cells which are collectively thinking...
sculling
in the little park next to the lake where i row, he’s frozen mid stroke at the half. whatever genius the sculptor had was spent entirely in getting his...
we spent the grandchildren’s inheritance and i regret nothing
how she loved words. the house was garlanded with them, the likes of which i never heard outside: facetious, gallivant, amoral, disingenuous, sarcasm. she...
ortolan
it came to me later, easily: a stupid metaphor, certainly, but seeing you thrashing like a caught bird against your sheets this is what i thought of. i was...
très riches heures: the ship of theseus
when i visited you today you told me that you had found work there, they had asked you a few questions and were so impressed by your answers that they asked...
ouimet
this canyon is so deep that arctic lichens are said to grow on its floor, brought there by some glacier that dragged herself over the land once. i have a...
away away
where does everything go when it’s gone? i don’t know but maybe we can drive there, you know i don’t care about the weather, it can shine or storm in equal...
très riches heures viii
i have such a deep respect for spring, how it overthrows me every time no matter how much i imagine i have braced myself: over i go into the swift current...
très riches heures vii
in the month of forever the teachers went on strike and two girls carefully removed a bottle, just one, of a father’s 2-4 case of beer, ov or blue ribbon,...
my mother remembered how to walk so now at night she runs
did i tell you i ran away? well i did, last night. are you surprised? well don’t be. i woke up and i thought that’s it screw this i’m out of here and i put...
no title
dyed my hair, left a thick grey streak in the underneath of it like a bad road, crooked. went out and counted birds, some on a wire some on the wing. flew...
très riches heures vi
that thing you do, the one with your mouth when you are thinking, he said, today. what a sharp little noticer, i thought. i like to notice small things too:...
waitress talk
me, i made money because i was so young, and had a look on me like a trembling baby calf, big eyes and all. i expect the customers felt some kind of pity, or...
baby salome
today i wore my favourite stockings, the ones with glitter woven right into them. god i love a shiny thing, and it’s been ages since i showed you one. have a...
every little thing
i do returns to me in something else: the summer i left i drove to the lake daily to swim in a bikini for the first time in decades, my body neither perfect...
très riches heures V
providence is a january field, bent stalked, sky dull and heavy with snow ready to fall in chords. the sun a pale blear. providence in what the birds take,...
last post
hello all, i’ve moved this to buttondown - i’ve brought your subscription with me, and will be moving all old posts from here soon too. please check spam...
magpie gleanings same great taste etc etc
hello beloved, i don't love this interface. i don't like starting over from scratch, though god knows it isn't the first time, and as far as that goes, less...
a falling knife has no handle
try and stop me from reaching out, anyway.
2 west, 44
NB: i will be migrating off this platform soon i fucking hate nazis
très riches heures IV
solstice
here in case
you need it: you will need it. come back whenever to find here tucked between this and that the deer that one time crashed through thick grass, brush and all...
sunday
i’m writing this to you before i nip out (i am always nipping out, it’s funny) to get some groceries and then i’m going to make a soup to bring to my mother...
the big book of amazing book of facts II
how does it feel to be almost brave?
très riches heures III
the month smooths out itself like a hand over a wrinkled cloth, and colours are subtracted one by one. the trees are bare, pale grasses whisper at their...
Smrt fašizmu, sloboda narodu!
my aunt said, the tongue is the last thing to go, meaning that after the legs stop working, after the mind turns inward on itself, after all the other...
looking, seeing, noticing
1. the full sized bottles of shampoo and conditioner, prohibited, which i had packed carelessly in my carry on luggage only a couple of hours earlier set off...
baby steps
right now i am alive for my children who are growing so quickly and who will leave, and so soon! it’s normal, i don’t begrudge it, and when they are gone i...
based on a true story
in this one all the mothers are kind. they purchase beautiful coats from lord and taylor, they live harmlessly in chicago and wish you well. they wish you...
très riches heures II
the door of october opens to the eldritch light of all that has and might have been. your grandmother sings under her breath from a room you have just left...
from the big book of amazing book of facts
one spell which you can cast right now is the abracadabra where the word decreases like this abracadabra bracadabra racadabra acadabra cadabra adabra dabra...
vječnaja pamjat
this is dedicated to Dosta C. who left our world today. Memory eternal
non sum dignus
at the top of the hill is a church with great stone steps leading up to the front double doors. through the doors, a red plush carpet leads to the altar...
dinner is ruined!
i avoid going to her apartment to see her, and i avoid knowing that i avoid it, but there it is: i hate it. don’t say hate, she used to say, it was on a list...
woo
during the unit on evolution, he would put his head on his desk, arms bent at the elbow underneath to cradle it and then look to the side, towards the window...
abscission
I am writing to you in the time of falling leaves, the small golden ones which carpeted the path I walked on today towards the sun as it sank into the...
apocalypse
see! how i love you. here at the end of the world. may it surprise us both.
très riches heures
september opens like a door through which the long shadow of a horse can be seen, hooves pinned to those of the living horse. there is a wildness that cannot...
is the only flag i love
when i was a child the post sorting office in our town had a giant flag on their flagpole and whenever we drove past it i would imagine my class lying...
i love you
because you showed up at my house every day before and after school, and you said it so i thought i should too. because you said it sometimes after you’d...
kept alive by dumb things
and humbled by how often it was dumb things and not the sublime: the berries in the fridge that would otherwise go mouldy, not ethics or morality or even the...
(i)sh.
one thing that’s funny (or sad) is how there are cartels for absolutely everything. really. did you read that story last month or last year — i don’t...
how raw?
i wrote this with a straight face, as straight as i can manage anyway