i like it raw
like a freshly dug grave, the way the earth, disturbed smells. i like it raw, on my knees, baby, you know- on my knees in the dirt, pulling plants out of the...
the name of this place is a secret
i am approaching this story with my head lowered, on my knees. i am crawling slowly towards the heart of the story without looking up. i am taking care not...
july
the smell of the kitchen; the steady hum of the refrigerator neatly underlining the quiet of the house. the front or side door opening was an airlock being...
who will i be when i am not myself anymore?
how do i answer that? already unbecoming, there are times i hardly recognise you, and did i ever think i would miss the you that once threw a pot with such...
glorious
I’ve been dreaming about cutting my hair again. In the dream I am shorn, like a sheep, or like Samson was, rough hands hold me close to the scalp and dull...
i walked the day into dusk
in the time of the beginning of this current ending, i walked all the time — i would walk with one child for an hour, then the other for another hour, and...
kodakrome
the purpose of filming, either static or video is much discussed; it is agreed i think that it makes the ordinary spectacular which is to say a spectacle,...
mothers day
she hardly has an interest in much of anything anymore so will sit placidly through everything which is really just another way of saying indifference. but...
1981: oh christ
oh what is it now? footsteps fast and heavy up the stairs. blood in the basement, there’ll be tears before bedtime someone jokes and they laugh but then...
the litany of the body
the body as the cross, carried by the body itself to some other golgotha. the body as golgotha. the body as the grave of another body, the body as cradle....
twinsies!
in the black and white photograph which is a copy of a copy & which sits on the bookcase are my grandfather and my emergency backup grandfather. they should...
at the heart of being a human
they say you never forget your first plane crash. i’m being facetious here, a word i learned in childhood which then seemed to mean saying stupid shit on...
taste and see that it is good
here is a thing about me, some words are just very satisfying, the way they sit, perfect and entire unto themselves like maybe a little pebble on your...
the mom issue
I think the most difficult thing is to be a witness, to sit in the space of suffering with someone else and be a witness to it. I am talking about the place...
Δημήτηρ
i’m going out on the balcony you want to come with? for you, i would walk anywhere. anywhere? anywhere. let’s go to hell then, that’s somewhere. yes i would...
matryoshka
When I was a child those choose your own adventure books were popular and being a little sneak and voraciously curious I would flip through every option...
threnody
what can’t be burned will be buried, what can be buried will be forgotten, what is forgotten will persist in the thinness of eggshells or the way there...
pursued by a bear
trigger warning for violence. i try to stay away from metaphors but this one squeaked out like a fart at a funeral.
a physics problem
please detach the list of formulae before beginning (appendix 1). answer in complete sentences and show all working. solve for x where this is the required...
a partial transcript of the incident report filed in the town of A., in the departement of A., 1783
When the ship was in the shadow of the Earth and the orientation system was turned on, was the motion of the stars visible? Could you see that?Could you hear...
This is what I call the Bills and Receipts of my Comets
i swept the heavens for my brother and found all marvels but him
starling iv
this is it for a while ok i’m pausing for everyone’s sake
6/49
what can’t we do, where can’t we go with a half a tank of gas? in one of his rare good moods and he’s so charming, cracking jokes until i sing one line too...
Aντικύθηρα
how i despair to see you in the hands of those who cannot know what you are for
solstice
in this wind, the snowflakes move like starlings in a murmuration, like the one i saw yesterday moving in a thick ribbon against the sky, which i thought...
starling III
it’s a way of thinking, a way of thinking to imagine that to look at something is to see it, that to see something requires direct intervention; a...
company man
“After five years Writers become Factors [...] the first of which period includes time spent at our College"
words taste of things, colours too
for as long as I can remember. I know this doesn’t make me special. glad is the colour of meconium, smells like the inside of a mask you have worn again and...
mine not mine
one thing is like another thing, enough that the mind insists, saying this other, this other, this is the same. is one field so unlike another? then call...
state of the union address
listen I love you joy is coming
a secret
i hope everyone in this one has had an excellent nights sleep
happiness, like an egg
Like a perfectly cooked egg, the yolk just right, that slides out of the shell when peeled like the miracle of a minor saint. Here are four: a child is...
zemlja
i want the earth of my village to be my final home
i’m your bird
i have a little tornado in my heart and sometimes i feed it words and then a story is thrown out, like this one:
a fairytale
In the city was a mountain, and the mountain was sacred; it was said that if you climbed to the very top and spent the night, you would have a vision. Once,...
my fall wish
to be as bare as a tree in late autumn, to wear the thin light of November like a veil, or a bandage.
Populus balsamifera
Bees sometimes harvest the resin from balsam poplar and use it to disinfect their hives.
CAGE MATCH: Mary vs. Martha
two sisters enter, one daughter leaves
mjesec
Tomorrow, that door in the centre of your brain (the one you like to joke is turning to glue) will open all the way. But it’s been opening anyway, first at...
kangir&iniq/ᑲᖏᖅᖠᓂᖅ
from my sonnet phase yes i had one yes i am insufferable
my grandfather is a question mark
True genius is perhaps in looking at the same thing again and again and still managing to see something new, or seeing it in a different way. When my mother...
ctrl + alt + delete
Sometimes I think about negative space which is not nothing, but no thing. It is a presence of an absence, every subtraction and deletion from the world. Not...
the sea guards all her creatures
An oar is not an oar it’s a pivot; no water is being moved at all but a boat is being rotated. two oars on opposite sides acting simultaneously rotate the...
romance language
ça veut dire/esto quiere decir:
the daddy issue
who is this masked man?
houdini
This is the lowest I’ve felt maybe since everything started, I look at everything that lies ahead this year with real dread, and concern that I’m not going...
testa dura
i want it so it’s mine.
physics
Sound is a mechanical wave which is another way of saying it requires a medium to move through; it’s the transmission of energy from particle to particle,...
stung
whether you don’t want to or you don’t know how to want to it works out the same
elegy
the time will come when there is no memory of her, but the memory of a memory instead