13/01/26

at my desk I eat carrots and walnuts and imagine floating away, never to be heard from again. I have coffee when I get up which is like 5.30 or 6am then I have coffee when I arrive at the office which is like 7.45am and then I have coffee after 11am. at this desk food feels depressing. in other places food can feel sexy. I like to cook a pot of lentils with eggplant and put a cup of white wine in it, I like to add a lot of salt to pasta water, I like to make a cucumber salad, I like to make tomato sauce with vodka in it, I like to put frozen raspberries into yoghurt, I like to bake an olive oil and vanilla cake that has applesauce in it. today I have been hungry, and yesterday, and the day before, and before that, the days and weeks and months and years, but mostly hungry for alignment. when will it find me? we know the answer already.