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April 29, 2025

No Homo, No Problem: How I Replaced My Need for Male Validation

It started innocently enough.

A compliment here, a bicep flex there. I told myself I was just appreciating the male form, the way ancient Greeks did — academically.

But after I called my gym crush “king” for the third time in one week, I knew something had to change.

That’s when I found Jesus…

…and a YouTube video on “How to Build a Tool Shed Without Crying.”

At first, I thought the shed would be a symbolic gesture — a monument to reclaimed masculinity. But somewhere between measuring raw lumber and screaming “I AM ENOUGH” into a pile of cedar planks, I felt something shift. The gay thoughts didn’t disappear — but now, they had to knock before entering.

I began spending every weekend in the shed. Alone. Shirtless. Sweating.

Not in that way. In the righteous, testosterone-soaked, spiritually dehydrated kind of way.

Each hammer strike echoed a mantra:

“I do not need validation from Chad.”

“I am not what Tim’s jawline made me feel.”

“I am wood. I am nails. I am emotionally distant.”

By month two, I’d developed:

  • A beard patchy enough to assert dominance but sad enough to earn pity.

  • A newfound hatred of Pinterest.

  • A deep, spiritual bond with my Craftsman circular saw named Salvation.

Now, every time I’m tempted to say “work, queen” when someone parallel parks perfectly, I clench my jaw, stare at the shed, and remember:

Masculinity is built — not moisturized.

Final Thoughts:

If you’re feeling lost, gay, or just slightly too good at decorating open shelving, grab an axe. Build a shed.

And when the demons of thirst whisper in your ear, scream, “I AM THE CARPENTER NOW.”

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