who are you and what are you doing no, don’t tell me about your databases, your frameworks what are you doing no, please don’t tell me about how many concurrent agents you are running on your myriad virtual machines what are you doing no, i beg of you not to tell me of how you now support post-quantum encryption by implementing the latest ieft drafts for hybrid ml-kem into your ipsec product what are you doing what will your legacy be
i look out the window to find inspiration for this part but it’s bleak out there, today my floorboards on the landing are about to break maybe i’ll talk about that i’m putting off addressing the situation for a cascade of reasons i cannot see the floorboards out of the window so maybe i won’t talk about that
weird
play is what turns everyday life into a fairy tale
step outside and breathe deeply, wait — the air feels different, doesn’t it? less hostile it whispers of a new embrace against the murmur of birdsong i can feel the change and it is welcome
what can you do when life throws a tantrum all your routines destroyed and mocked your car is broken your child is very sick your kitchen flooded work deadlines are looming things are broken your brain is mush how can you-
a new year, a new what? a new goal? a new routine? a new fucking outlook on life? there is no past there is no future there is no time but the now
be in the now taste the now enjoy the now be the now you are the now we are the now there is only now we only have now now is all we have and we have a million more nows to come
we can be so hesitant to accept endings they are heavy so heavy weighted with the passing of time you did not quite notice when things changed though it brought you joy and gave you life there are things we must end sometimes to make way for bright beginnings to blossom and new discoveries about ourselves to be made in earnest with a full heart and a free mind: the game will stop this time when the stream ends
i have travelled and i have seen many places and people and different positions of the sun in the sky experienced ideas and food and sights and sounds and all of it was something but i am home now and i intend to stay here for quite a while
stop for a moment and breathe keep breathing search within yourself for what you enjoy for what makes you want to wake up and never go to sleep for what makes you smile and never want to stop and do those things every day just for a little bit every day i promise you you’ll be ok
weird
i am the millionaire musical composer and impresario
i spoke at 7 conferences this year and it was too much because i also travelled for other things many times and i am tired and i miss my family and i keep getting sick i want to stay home next year
i do not wish to create content i wish to create memories nourishing food cosy living spaces with soft lighting and blankets i wish to create art music poetry manifestations of my inner being and love i do not wish to create content i wish to create a life
do not be afraid when the light fades there are only fifty six days until it begins its ascent if the world’s heart is still beating when the time comes
weird
i’ve had my desktop churn for two weeks on trying the rhombicosidodecahedron
the thing with having metal in your mouth is that it does things like closing a gap it once created overnight pain begets progress love begets love you can manifest anything
when there is so much hate in the world
love
when everything is too weird
love
when you don’t know why you’re here
love
when you don’t know who you are
love
when you don’t know what the fuck is going on
love
love
and love
today i am reunited with friends from far away places today i’ll be welcomed with love and some hope today i will give hugs and we’ll laugh oh we’ll laugh at the absurdity of it all
