A nearly formless sludge
Hello friend,
Here we are. 2021. Where everything is happening all at once. And yet, I am still somehow incredibly bored.
//happening
I don't know about you but I am feeling so disconnected from my art-life, from art in general, from my own practice and from the wider performance art world. And I'm not sure how to reconnect. I don't know if I remember how to make things with my body.
The impact of the past 11 months on my body is unnerving me as well. All this time working from home.
Last week a pain set in the right-side of my neck and spent two days radiating down my arm. My lower back almost constantly aches. My hips are tighening. There's more headaches than normal and even my knees are sore. It's such an unexpected side effect of these lockdowns. I've been foam rolling and pigeon-posing as much as I can. How are you? Is the pandemic ruining your body?
It's just occuring to me as I write this that maybe this is playing a part in my disconnected feelings. Usually my body feels like an accomplice, now it feels like we're barely speaking.
//aesthetic pleasure
This gently moving crown by Iris Van Herpen and Casey Curren. Alien and so organic. It feels protective.
//read
++ "Only after this near-total self-annihilation can the new growth begin." - The truth about cocoons. I love the strange hope in this.
++ "But we all know the money isn’t in performance art. It’s in porn." - Composition: Skin has two sides by Adriana Disman makes me really miss long interconnected conversations with like-minded art friends. The kind that happen in the gaps at festivals and similar events. Lots to relate to here for me.
++ What does it mean to consider yourself a disabled person - This shone a light on mental calculations I wasn't even aware I'd been making when faced with 'Yes / No / Prefer not to say' options on forms. If you have any kind of non-visible disability then I suspect you'll also relate.
++ And finally, animals interrupting wildlife photographers. Just a joy.
Ok, I think that's enough. I miss you, I hope you're staying safe.
//Hellen