Calibrating Blue Skies
New beginnings to the world of the tiny ghost concerning re-introductions, creativity, and trash heaps.
Tiny Ghost, Big Feels //
dispatches from the fine print of everyday emotions
001 - August 2025
💌 Status update: Soft existential meltdown in a parking lot.
🎧 Currently listening: Gabe Dixon Band's "All Will Be Well" which would definitely land a spot on your 'Anthems for a Blanket Fort' playlist.
💬 Discussed: Who am I? Where are we going? Are we there yet?
Welcome back
New beginnings. How do you even start writing to internet people?
Sometimes out here on the ether of the internet...I simply disappear. It feels like a common occurrence for a lot of us, daydreaming and drifting along social media while dipping in and out as our energies allow. Sometimes endless scrolling into the night depths and sometimes setting the device down and staring at the verdant leaves on a tree.
A (re) Introduction
Hi, I'm Allison (she/her): witchy feminist counsellor-in-training. I am about to enter my third (and last!) year of grad school to transition into working as a therapist. I believe in care that is brave and relational. I am an artist, a writer, an introvert, and I carry a fondness for flightless birds (the kakapo is my favourite). You might know me from a few places: as a front-end developer, Tech Coven, or perhaps out there crossing paths in real time and space.
I was recently listening to Sarah Faith Goddestiner being interviewed on Amelia Hruby's 'Off the Grid' podcast during a run. One part really stood out to me:
"And if I don't make things, I feel really depressed...honestly, there's like a clear connection between me creating things and my mental health and my emotional health and all of that."
Whew. THUD. There was something about this portion that was spoken so earnestly, so matter-of-factly...and I realized that somewhere along the way, I have misplaced my sense of how much my well-being positively expands when I make time for my creativity. And how frustrated I get that the world positions creative acts as superfluous.
The plan, moving forward:
- 1-2 dispatches per month from me, outfitted with marginalia about my internet rabbit holes (Originally going to be monthly but I'm feeling sassy tonight and want to leave myself open)
The next year includes me writing a 55+ page capstone paper for school and as a result, I will likely have a list of side quest topics for along the way.
✨ Browser Tabs
- The Pleasure x Effort Matrix by Shea Fitzpatrick - This overview provides a process and visual layout for the exploration of self. It is not for self-optimization or being able to doing more but instead presents a thesis that: competency ≠ interest and validation ≠ pleasure.
- When I had no phone and no one could reach me - This written piece by sensory storyteller Brandi Cheyenne Harper touches on introversion, running a business, choosing intention, and disappearing from the internet (sound familiar?). It speaks to the past version of me with no data/texting and the present me that wants connection but without the added cost of modern perpetual availability.
- Björk: Mother, Daughter, Force of Nature - This article is originally from 2022; the glimpses into Björk's mental landscape plus the Icelandic surroundings feed my soul. Grief, body autonomy, funghi, parenthood. The photos are amazing, and a surprise but not a shock finding out at the end: "All wardrobe courtesy of Björk".
See you on the internet.
(your tiny ghost in residence)
—Allison