Space For Feelings
I was crying at the end of the series. And for the next three days I was sad. And not just any kind of sad. My heart was sore. And heavy. It wasn’t some minor melancholy. It was loss. The injustice tore me apart. It was unfair. And there was nothing I could do.
Feeling like this is not normal for me. Because, as someone with ADHD, I don’t give myself much space or time to feel. The only thing I feel is excited for the next thing! I’m always busy. I have so many ideas and things I want to do. Because one of the superpowers that come with ADHD is the ability to hyper-fixate on something. I tend to go from one hyper-fixation to another. The next thing is THE MOST INTERESTING THING EVER. I don’t take breaks too often. I don’t give myself space to process emotions.
Recently, I have. I’ve been walking to my studio. I’ve been practicing yoga. I’m writing for 10–15 minutes each day. I’m being present with my family. I’m saying no to so many things. I’ve discovered there’s a ton of emotions there. Just below the surface. Movies, series, songs, and podcasts are bringing them up and giving me language to describe how I feel.
I’ve discovered so much value in pausing. Could I become hyper-fixated on rest? On pause? It’s an interesting notion. If you’re at all like me, taking time to rest, chat, walk, listen, and dream, is good for your health, your mind, and your soul! Which is all good for your creativity.
3 things that’ve made me feel recently:
I’d love to know what’s moved you recently, and what you do to pause.
More things from me:
Last Monday there was a fire in the building my studio is in. I was in the building when the firetrucks and policemen arrived to do their thing! I’m okay. All our equipment is okay. It was pretty surreal. There’s still no internet or heating in my studio. So I haven’t been spending as much time there as I usually do. So, no streaming until the internet is back up.
My Dreamheadz mint is almost minted out.
I’m almost finished the curriculum for a remake of my popular Procreate Animation class.
I’ve been having more fun producing generative art!
❤️ Big loves
Rich from TapTapKaboom