Questions for 2025
Does your step count matter? Did it matter that you donated to the fundraiser? Does it matter if people saw that you did? (Or if they saw how much?)
Does it matter if I showed up to your show? Did you show up to mine? Did either of us notice? What if you were sick, depressed, working, out of town, or simply not in the mood?
Did you learn to sew your own clothes, or decide to thrift what you couldn’t? Did you go to karaoke, or will you next year? Will you invite a new friend to come with?
Does it matter that we tried to change things if it didn’t work? If it never, ever, never-ever, at least not more than a little bit, despite our best efforts, (were they our best efforts?), worked? Does it count if someone we respect noticed that we were trying? What if that someone we respect is ourselves? What if, deep down, that someone thinks the theory of change we were employing throughout the process might have been basically bullshit?
Maybe we could contribute to the fundraiser again next week?
Are the heirloom beans still dry in the pantry? Can you cut yourself some slack? Why the fuck did they cancel that TV show? Literally what the fuck is going through their goddamn fucking minds?
Did you text them back?
Why not??
Returning to the aforementioned matter of the step count, a quick follow-up: When your Fitbit inevitably dies, will you replace it? If it fell off at the expensive queer party on the rooftop overlooking the skyline and the river and you didn’t realize until you got home and in the morning the venue staff told it was nowhere to be found, would you feel irritated, ashamed, or set free?
How many drinks will you drink? How many pounds will you lift? How many fights will we win? How many times will we meet people where they’re at? How bitterly or how gracefully will we depart?
Are you going to regret signing that one DocuSign?
Will you wash your water bottle this year? How many times will you have to move?
When you dance, how do you want to feel? Do you think we will protest more this year? Do you think the disobedience will be less civil this time? Do you have a go bag? Do you have any dance pants you actually like? Okay and so what are you gonna do about that huh bitch? Did you dream it’s over? Did you post? Did you like? Did you love?
Will you ask for help? Will you phone a friend? What will happen next?
Until then, and afterward, what will we do about it all?