i'm feelin (20)22...? recaps and reflections and uhhh maybe resolutions
I meant to write this way earlier in the month but here I am now, seven hours away from the new year, sitting on my couch eating crispy fried broccoli florets. I meant to write about lot of things, actually, with a separate post for each of them, but that's definitely not going to happen anymore. So here's a quick summary of my fall/winter 2021 seasonal highlights:
Quit the job that was slowly deteriorating my mental health! can I get a hell yeah
Got too drunk on Halloween and threw up like four times which was so embarrassing like am I still in college? but I also kissed a really hot girl who gave me her phone number and said I could text her anytime, except I'm too shy so I haven't yet and probably never will now
Walked by Tobey Maguire in Venice and frantically googled that day's paparazzi photos of him to confirm my eyes weren't playing tricks on me
Had a redemption hookup with someone else, equally as charming, that hit all the sweet spots (emotionally and physically) I had such high hopes for and was ultimately disappointed by from the first one
Was so so excited to swipe and judge all the tech bros for months leading up to my Bay Area trip, but that feeling dissipated almost overnight because I started a very cute and wholesome relationship literally days before I left
Saw Spiderman which devastated me in the absolute best ways, also I'm still proud of being able to avoid all spoilers for a full week after its release, alsoo it made my Tobey run-in feel even more surreal somehow, alsooo I'll probably drag the new boyf to see it with me again
Got really into luxury bags this holiday season after buying my ~*~*first~*~* mid level one and now I know way too much about the Toy Loulou and the Antigona and the Lady Dior and all the other big name shit. Also discovered a whole world of niche contemporary bag brands that I really love too... like I've literally never been a bag girl but now I'm like what if... I bought a thousand dollar bag..... haha jk... unless?? how long would the shot of serotonin last
I guess this year was all right? I don't really remember what all happened, honestly. I got a dog in February and I underestimated how severe a life change that would be, so it wasn't exactly undesired but it also wasn't originally accounted for, either. Then around April/May I decided I was feeling unhappy and stagnant enough to stop merely existing and actually make "real" changes to my life. Now I'm cautiously moving through the beginning stages of them and hoping for the best, but I still have a feeling that something's incomplete. Like I haven't actively tried making all the changes I wanted to this time around, so that's unfinished homework for next year... aka tomorrow..... I am not done growing yet and I am excited to experience my own growth!!
I'm not going to sit here and act like I'm someone who makes resolutions, much less fulfills them, but the amount of shit I purchased in 2021 kinda shook me and I'm really going to try and make it a personal goal to not repeat that. Especially after this past week of my obsessive bag browsing, it's a little scary how easily I'm able to justify an impulse purchase in my mind. Also, the time I spend considering whether something's worth buying has drastically decreased, while the ceiling of how much I'm willing to spend on a single item has dramatically increased. So like I really gotta stop before I get a little too crazy... which is why this is my one (1) single concrete resolution that I really want to work on. I've also made up a gamified way to fix this aspect of my life, so now with you as my witness, I'm going to outline it all here and try my absolute best to stick to it for the whole year.
I am allowed one indulgent material purchase per month. To clarify that's one single item, not one order that contains multiple items
If I don't buy anything that month, it doesn't get to roll over into the next month. And obviously I can't steal from next month's in advance
Necessary items or essential replacements don't count, like if I dropped my phone into the ocean and needed to replace it. But buying a new iPhone because I want to counts
Exclusions to make this easier for me: routine skincare items, gifts for other people, Nintendo eShop, toys for Mavis, books as long as I've finished a book I own but haven't read yet that month
I know quitting cold turkey isn't gonna work cuz I would allow myself to give up mentally and end up buying something impulsive, and then since I had already failed I'd just keep my old habits. But hopefully this works as like a soft opening into learning to downsize and being less materialistic... and also because I lowkey wanna overhaul/refresh my entire wardrobe..... and this obviously doesn't count for food and toiletries and other daily stuff, it's main goal is to curb my shopping addiction. I'm sure I'm missing some rules that I thought of earlier but whatever, this is what I'm gonna work with for now. I hope this forces me to be more mindful of what I'm buying and where I'm buying from.
Okaaay that's all, I'm a little bummed about the first nye party I've ever been invited to being canceled, especially cuz it was fairy themed and I had THEEE cutest outfit. But I'm also super glad because now I get to be nice and cozy sitting on the couch in my new cable knit pj set, writing this update, drinking a nice cocktail, embodying the vibes. It is now about four hours away from 2022! HAPPY NEW YEAR BINCH THANKS FOR STICKIN AROUND