Aug. 10, 2025, 7:09 a.m.

10 — Gradients.

Natural Conversation

2:24 am

The alarm was set for 2:30 am, but my brain is anticipating this so much that I’m already awake. I’m lying in bed, no sound outside other than the crickets. It’s a lovely summer night.

2:30 am

Bzzz bzzz bzzz, the alarm on the watch on my wrist is vibrating. I’m already up, and have already put on both t-shirt and shorts. I can feel the fact that I slept only a few hours in my eyes: they are heavy. It doesn’t matter, though. I’m going for it.

2:35 am

There is no chance I get to sneak out the house without waking up the dog. I leave my bedroom, and there he is, already awake, watching me. I don’t have to utter a word, only a small gesture with my head that says “we’re going”, and he jumps up and runs downstairs.

2:44 am

I’m not gonna have to walk a lot, but I have to eat something nonetheless. I won’t have coffee; it’s too early. I heat some bread and I put some peanut butter and jam. Good enough for a quick breakfast.

2:53 am

I put the collar on the dog, and he’s excited. He’s always excited to go out, no matter the time, no matter where we’re going.

2:56 am

We’re in the car. It’s 22°C outside.

3:01 am

The first yawn of the trip. I know it’s not going to be the last. The darkness both outside and inside the cabin is not helping me stay awake.

3:05 am

Two cars are coming in the opposite direction. I doubt I’ll see many on my way up.

3:17 am

First deer spotted. He was minding his own business on the side of the road.

3:27 am

I passed through the last town. It’s gonna be just nature from now on.

3:32 am

Engine is off. It’s 18°. Gonna be a fun hike up to the summit.

3:58 am

I stop for a second to catch my breath. This is by no means a challenging hike—I'll have to ascend maybe 350 meters—and I’ve done it plenty of times in normal conditions. But doing it right out of bed, after having slept 4 hours and having hiked almost another 4 the day before, is making this harder than usual. But that’s fine.

4:03 am

I’m back up. Time to finish this hike.

4:17 am

A familiar sight in front of me: the small church that sits at the top of the mountain. The summit is just a few minutes away.

4:19 am

After 44 minutes of walking and 322 meters of elevation gained, I have arrived. And because life can be funny sometimes, there are more people up here than I saw since I left the house. I guess I’m not the only one who enjoys a good summer night.

A couple of tents, a person in a sleeping bag—which I didn't even see at first—one sitting on the steps of the church, staring at the horizon. I wonder what she's thinking about.

4:30 am

I see a headlamp in the distance. Someone else is coming up. I don’t enjoy company, not even a silent one, so I leave. No need to stay all here at the top when there’s a whole mountain at our disposal.

4:41 am

I can see the night starting to brighten up behind the mountains. I say brighten up, but it was plenty bright already. I hiked up without needing to turn my headlamp on. The full moon is shining bright.

4:45 am

I decided to start hiking back down. A frog jumps in front of me. Wonder where he’s headed.

5:08 am

People chatting on their way up. I guess they don’t appreciate the beauty of a silent morning in the mountains.

5:11 am

Another couple coming up with enough LED to light up the entire northern hemisphere. Also completely pointless: there’s enough light that I could easily read a book. They also blinded me, but they didn’t seem to care.

5:21 am

I stop to take a few pictures. The crisp, dark ridge line standing in front of a perfect gradient, only a few lights still visible in the sky: Venus and Jupiter, our planetary siblings.

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5:25 am

I can see the parking lot in the distance. The moon is still up and bright in the sky on my right. The sun is rising on my left. It’s a beautiful scenery, but the part I enjoy the most is over. The first few minutes of sunrise, when the light starts to creep into the darkness of the night. That is what I was here for.

5:41 am

I’m back in the car. I ended up walking 3.8km. Took me a bit more than 2 hours. Saw one lovely summer sunrise. Not as solitary as I was hoping for, but I’ll take it. The dog is happy. I’m happy. We can get back home now.


6:32 am

It’s almost an hour later, and I’m typing this on my laptop rather than on my phone. I’m back at home, sitting in the kitchen, drinking the coffee I didn’t have when I woke up 4 hours ago. Another hot summer day is ahead of me, but that doesn’t bother me all that much. I’m happy and grateful. Grateful to have a healthy body that allows me to walk up a mountain at 3 in the morning. Grateful to live in a place where I can do such a thing without having to worry too much about what I might find up the mountains. Grateful to live on a planet with a moon. Grateful to have seen the sun rising once again.

— M

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