Milestones 2.5
Thanks for the advice, past me!
Worlds collided today.
On the one hand, I have been thinking a lot about our 6-month nappiversary. Reflecting on what I have learned from writing my own posts and reading those from our friends. On the other hand, I had a “want” nap — not a need — and for the first time in my new home, I decided to go for the living room couch and not my bedroom floor.1
Good idea in theory, but after two weeks of primarily using my coveted accu mat, I was a little rusty hopping back on the couch. It’s funny, everything should be the same when you close your eyes, but it’s not. The room felt different even though I couldn’t see it. I was not on my napping game.
This was a moment to remind myself of my own posts. To remember the breathing and mind control techniques I self-identified, evaluated, used and posted on. But it didn’t really work. My mind kept swirling and coming back to writing a post about the experience…which would make sense if I had achieved the goal.2
I do think I eventually lost consh, but maybe not. What I know is that my eyes were closed for the full 30 I had on the timer, and I woke up happy that I had given myself 30 minutes after a very busy seven days with the kids.
I don’t know why I have been so set on my bedroom floor since we moved. I’ll have to explore that with Matt in our next 1x1 napping conversation.
Ed. I think this is debatable — you and I alike have had some solid posts about good enough naps where you don’t lose consh. That said, I’ve actually been wrestling with a post about what it’s like as my thoughts start to swirl and get weird when I’m about to lose consh. I started to lay the idea out here, but the challenge is that when I start to have the weird thoughts before going under, I can either go all the way under or stop to take notes. I always choose the nap and with that choose to lose track of the thoughts that I want to write about in a future post…a conundrum indeed!