Moon Memo: Just a week
Hello from Portland, Oregon, dictating this into my phone as I'm sitting in the bathtub. Autumn has come. My friends and I were getting gay tacos on Wednesday, and the sky opened, with three months of pent up rain. We laughed together. Our clothes were soaked. They clung to our bodies. We ran shrieking to our cars and bus stops. It was beautiful. It was warm. It felt like a turning of a page on the seasons.
Last night, the new girlfriend went to the hospital. She has tonsillitis really bad. She has been sick three times since we started dating, which isn't very long.
Hospitals are hard for me. A previous relationship included a partner who regularly went to the emergency room, hoping to get painkillers. I never wanna be that person again: rushing someone who was in incredible pain because of the gnawing need for drugs. I don't judge her. But with my family history with white powders and chronic pain, it was difficult to be part of that chain of addiction again.
This is not Sunflower. She is a good pup. She is in recovery. She is doing the work. But it was hard for me to pull up to the emergency room again. It was hard for me to worry about her, and her prescriptions.
Frustrations at work. It's hard to have somebody in my coworker space who doesn't respect me or the work that I do. we can do the work and not need to play power games. I want the best for my coworkers.
Still living in little notebooks. I filled three of them in the last month. Once I fall in love with something it's very hard to let it go. I had somebody ask me yesterday why I am always writing. This is how I think. And it's good to do it away from a keyboard again.
I want to get back into doing these on the regular. I think that being able to explain what's at the front of my brain to a bunch of other people is a really really really good habit to get into. It allows me to get responses, that might shift my worldview.
Getting ready to go see Elodie soon. If there is a classy broad in my life, she is the one. (I say that with all affection, I know that word is bullshit. But I think she would appreciate it.). Is there anyone in my friend group more beautiful and talented? I don't think so. And I surround myself with incredibly beautiful and talented people.
OK enough now. Thank you for reading.
Have a wonderful weekend.
Onward and upward!
Misha Lynn Moon