Moon Memo: A boring one
Good morning from rainy old Portland Oregon, where I am playing with tools, again. I had a job interview that feels like a real job (not to jinx it. God, I hope I didn't jinx it.), and so I'm thinking about desk set up. About job set up. About how to have tools that make it so I'm efficient and good. Because all I ever want is to be good.
Where do your communication tools go? On the laptop screen? Which side of the big screen does your computer go? How do you set up your big screen? I like having a text editor available for random notes. To draft emails before throwing them into the machine. Writing tool on the left; browser on the right. Music on the phone, because you don't want to put anything personal on the work computer. Work is for work. Personal is for personal.
I hate being like this. I don't even have the job. But I have to be the best little worker, so that they'll like me forever. And being a good worker means being efficient. How horrible. Especially in this broken world.
Spent yesterday cuddling with a girl. Sex as beside the point. Just cuddly and comforting beside the world. Just something other than broken. She and her wife are buying a house. She is still searching for work. Finding work for many many years. How nonsense. How no good.
God, I hope I got that job. I'm tired about being worried about Jade and the pressure that I'm putting on them (I know they don't feel that pressure. But I do. And I worry about it.).
I got a lot of personal comments about my talk about kink and power dynamics. Thank you all for reaching out.
Writing a lot, as usual. Poems and poems and poems. I don't know how I feel about them. I feel pressure to do them. What else am I if I'm not burning ink into paper?
Not a lot else to write about. I just write because it's what I do. I hope that you have something to keep you happy and working. Love you a ton.
Misha
PS: Just got a heads up that the Quatsi Trilogy is being delivered. 3 documentaries about our broken world, made by Godfrey Reggio over the course of 25 years. He's a hero of mine. How do you grow old in an interesting way? That's him.
"I’ve given a few commencement addresses and I think the thing I’ve tried to tell the people that are graduating is that don’t let your diploma be your death certificate. And what I mean by that is that there’s more to life than earning money. Money is important we all need it of course but if it becomes the raison d’etre of living then creativity goes out to do. money can be like a fever. The more you have the more you want."
