Life As It Is Now
Today marks two weeks since my last day at Erewhon Books.
Since then . . .
I’ve started working at my local coffee/beer shop.
I’ve sent in my application for an MFA program through a local university.
I’ve read the audiobook for Audition For The Fox.
I’ve stopped crying every other day.
I’ve stopped feeling the weight of depression on my shoulders.
I’ve stopped begging for happiness.
I am happier, though I’m sad to leave. But it was time; a story for a different day.
I am making peace with tenuousness; uncertainty. It’s not the forest has unseeable paths, it’s that there are many, and each leads to glades unseen but dreamed of.
I am faced with potential in my days now.
Like Captain Janeway said in Emily St. John Mandel’s novel Station Eleven, “Survival is insufficient.”
And I was barely surviving.
More soon. I’m working on a series of blogs, things I learned in publishing, more worldbuilding, Fox stuff coming up for the Fall.
More soon.
I’m learning how to be me again.
Yours,
Marty