in the very east of switzerland i saw red mountains
and i didn't think about how they made me feel
and i was sitting in this car my mom was driving
so i couldn't touch them
i couldn't smell them
but they were still there
they are still there
even though i can't see them
feel them
ask them
they are as real me and the strawberries who grew last summer

a week later i visited a place i've put into 'tomorrow is my birthday'
three years later and it looks exactly the same
but petal and bios still left, still were not there
i often walk around the town i live in and think about them
because i've put so many places of that town into that game
my town doesn't have many places
where did they go?

a month ago i was with my partner
a month ago i had to go back home
for a month i've been alone
where did they go?

today we watched camp miasma together
a movie that is very real and not an allegory
my partner was on screen too
very real and not an allegory

it gets late and i listen to charli xcx
she sings about a camera that is on
how she doesn't wanna
does not want to
but then (wait) she does want to
want to feel it (maybe)
am i feeling it?

tomorrow i go to game school again
and we will talk about how this mechanic will make someone feel
what this visual is referring to
how that dialogue is a unique selling point
why these fonts are immersive
while nobody's going to ask little_rabbit_squeek.mp3
who are you?

thanks for reading <3

we still don’t know what a game is but until then we keep on playing ~*
riley<9