a thing i am trying to do more of is own my mutability. is change so bad? so what if things are one way one day and another way another day? this also extends to giving over to potential incoherence, to the idea that i might not make sense, to myself or to others. and i guess the question then is: who fucking cares? in the words of the immortal talking heads, STOP MAKING SENSE. sense is overrated.
i have an album of photos titled “vibes (1988)” and both of these are in there
who is making sense for? what purpose does it serve? what even is making sense, in the modern age? are these all just bullshit questions to let myself off the hook??? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Even though the word makes me feel like a new age freak, I have written before about having a small personal altar, but the previous incarnation used to be a little smattering of objects on my side of the headboard. Now that we have a giant fucking house for 2 people & a dog, I have my own office, which has become my less-little bigger-smattering of objects, full of tiny altars to different things, including this one:
altar? i hardly know'ar!
It looks like I know anything about crystals; I don’t, I mostly just like rocks. I know they have meaning & I’ll sometimes pick up a specific one if I’m looking to stay mindful of that specific thing, but largely to me they are pretty & sparkly & impress upon me that nature is crazy. Actually most of this is nature & how awesome I think it is: turkey feathers & birch shavings & tiny bones & tiny pinecones & butterfly wings. The skull is solid stone, a present from M for some gift-giving opportunity, or just because. I also have a card about Blanca, patron saint of comfy sweaters who personally knitted one of the coziest ones in my closet, & my favorite photo of M & me.
I decided to dive back into a small thing I started doing when I first set this up. I pull a card from three different decks——Brian Eno’s Oblique Strategies (digital version), a holographic Rider–Waite tarot set + Jessica Dore’s Tarot for Change, & Dirt Gems——& usually marvel at the way they seem to coincide with each other.
I thought I’d send a little reflection on 2024. I’m not big on New Year’s resolutions—I’m making resolutions all the time, regardless of date—but I do generally like to look back on the past year to note, synthesize, and record some things.
2024 IN SHORT SUM: So bleak *gestures broadly* out there—so cozy in here!
2024 HIGHLIGHTS: Working on and releasing 2 episodes of DIVERGENCY; going to the Midwest Gaming Convention; getting my inverse Mucha-inspired tattoo; running consistently the whole year; Soren visiting.
