april moods & vaccine
dear stranger-friends,
it's spring again and I'm in new york city - after 1.3 years away. I didn't write for a few weeks because it was black-hail-storming, tsunami weather inside of me. but I opened my eyes, and I'm on the other side of the atlantic, already half-vaccinated. I'll be here until end of may.
this week, i'm sharing
- excerpts of a travel letter: on leaving berlin
- art from a daily mood diary
- beginnings of the soothing room
wishing you
quiet river songs
& blue sky dreams
kening
PS. happy scorpio full moon. once i wrote this scorpio self-care guide for myself. still relevant.
a travel letter | the vaccine: leaving berlin
on how I packed up my berlin life -- in three days -- and left for new york city.
today | a peace of the river
here and now — i’m staying in riverdale, the bronx — at a friend’s apartment with this view of the hudson river, and the palisades of new jersey. the water is still and silent in the morning, shimmering like diamonds in the afternoon, and silken, like a veil, in the evenings.
a place for SOS days | the soothing room
a new room, under construction, for i've-lost-my-mind-crisis days.
## april 24 | blind in the desert sea
feeling bad in a way i can’t quite put my finger on — like being on 10% battery, like a cup with a leak at the bottom, like walking blind in a vast desert sea. who am I, and who are you? I don’t even know.
## april 19 | i kiss you in darkness
an animated poem
april 13 | in the nest of the universe
one of those days in which I feel held by life. back again in this strange city I used to call home, thinking how all homes are both temporary and forever, how the universe is my home, and sometimes the best things happen when you do nothing, force nothing, but just exist and watch the world around you in its ecstatic dance.
april 10 | a kaleidoscope glacier
I didn’t post for a few days because I was busy packing up my apartment in berlin and flying back to new york — after 1.3 years away from that city. it feels like a continuation of my travels. I drew this on the airplane from Frankfurt to JFK.
april 3 | dead birds in my heart
I went hiking in a forest with a friend today and tried to tell the birds in my heart to fly — go to the tops of the trees and sing songs for me.
april 2 | like a drowned flower
if i could harness the power of my emotions, i could power a megacity.
april 1 | a total eclipse day
after a night like a nightmare, i woke up to a total eclipse day.
thank you from a sparkling riverbank for reading my weekly digest. write me back anytime.