Things I've found in my notes app.
Stuff I thought was worth remembering, and then forgot.
I.
I used to chase my inner child
and they’d evade me, quick as a hare.
frightened as one, too.
I just wanted some of their joy, their
unwavering belief in the magical, the surety
that they felt that if they were patient enough, a
merry band of heroes would come knocking to
ask them on an adventure. grown up me needs
that confidence, sometimes.
II.
all this stemmed from my contemplating why I love trinkets. little blind bags. like for a moment I am seven and under the Christmas tree and the joy is immense and the suspense almost physically painful. I chase that feeling, micro dose it with mystery bags and gacha machines.
III.
looks like something dragged itself out of the river
a dog?
or something else?
IV.
I died and my heart was shaking so so hard that it wasn’t even my fault
V.
- do you want to see?
- no
- then I will not show you. anything that I have parsed you do not want to see in me, I do not show you.