friends

March 11, 2021

after not seeing any friends for months and months, hanging out yesterday evening in kh's backyard with kh and f and talking and laughing and talking and...

how thankful i was to be rained on while out running yesterday afternoon,

March 8, 2021

how thankful i was to be rained on while out running yesterday afternoon, having left the house to sunshine thinking there would be no rain and at a...

a really good fucking thing so something derivative of it is also pretty good

March 5, 2021

"rager teenager" by troye sivan, which feels so derivative of blonde-era frank, but also blonde-era frank is a really good fucking thing so something...

green apple flavored big league chew

March 4, 2021

taking a walk with d and miso after work, the sun still outthe dawn "powerwash" dish spray d bought, which smells uncannily like green apple flavored big...

stath lets flats

March 3, 2021

it's hard for me to find new comedies to watch because while i can still enjoy watching dramas that are leaden or melodramatic or absurd, when comedy doesn't...

late stage advanced earworms

February 27, 2021

i had been putting off updating carrier settings in my phone for weeks, the modal popping up and needing to be told "not now" several times a day every day,...

everything lana condor eats in a day

February 25, 2021

i'm thankful for lana condor's "everything i eat in a day" video because i already liked her because of her performances and then to find that she likes many...

interrogate the to-do list

February 24, 2021

i'm thankful that the waste disposal services do pickup every week on wednesday, but only take trash every other week, and i'm thankful that this week was a...

close as a bee's dick

February 20, 2021

that though i woke up at 4 AM this saturday morning and could not go back to sleep, which is not preferable, especially on a weekend, rather than strain...

hackathon

February 13, 2021

we had a little hackathon yesterday at work and while i had enjoyed pitching some ideas a few weeks ago (i love brainstorming ideas and generating pitches),...

the most delightful thing to read on a saturday morning

February 13, 2021

the most delightful thing to read on a saturday morning: sarah hagi on watching lost https://link.medium.com/3OMiwZOKPdb

i never have to think about the temperature of my butt

February 11, 2021

this letter about marketing, blackness, pepsi, and coming out by ira madison III dana has been writing thank you notes again (feb 9, feb 10) this delightful...

slack DMing someone a joke in a boring meeting

February 10, 2021

the concluding image of the free britney documentary (SPOILER) which is this instagram video of her in the bath holding a rose which she then reveals, by...

let's break out of this, we've been constipated too long

February 9, 2021

this episode of the chris hayes podcast about the history of the filibusternew prozd food review video in which he eats 30 kinds of pocky and pretz (which...

the dark night rises

February 8, 2021

i felt some weird craving to watch the dark knight rises the other evening, which is a weird grimdark bloated movie craving that recurs periodically for me...

a truly great novel i read in one sitting (sorry)

February 7, 2021

this profile of steven yeun by jay caspian kangthe tv show the head, about mysterious deaths at an antarctic research station, which we finished watching...

a brief window of sunshine

February 4, 2021

during a brief window of sunshine yesterday afternoon, chasing miso around the back yard. the excitement she exudes every time she realizes i'm not just...

ibuprofen

February 3, 2021

ibuprofenyesterday kind of sucked but today is going better so fardeborah asking me at the end of my day how my day was and me telling her about that and...

the meeting i normally have at 8am on tuesdays is moving to 9am next week

February 2, 2021

it was my one year anniversary at work yesterday and my coworkers wrote very sweet messages to/about me.the meeting i normally have at 8am on tuesdays is...

which i improved by adding a selection of leftover charcuterie plate cheese bits

February 1, 2021

d wrote a letter with her gratitude notes from october; that many of them are also things i'm grateful ford's excitement at learning guitar and bass, even as...

birdwatchers swear they can spot a bird from its jizz

January 29, 2021

this paragraph, which someone shared at work and really made me lol:"Birdwatchers swear they can spot a bird from its jizz. The word's origins are unknown,...

god give me the serenity to accept that i just don't like mochi

January 28, 2021

this very real letter from emily about a particular weirdness of remote jobs, especially now (he says as he hits the year anniversary of a job where he has...

a narcissist who will take any opportunity for autobiographical writing

January 27, 2021

writing a daily standup post at work in slack, which as a narcissist who will take any opportunity for autobiographical writing i (duh) love. it's something...

the dalai lama (apparently) on worrying

January 26, 2021

the way that boxer briefs or briefs cradle and support my balls, something i take for granted but was reminded of after briefly wearing a pair of old boxer...

the intoxication of convalescence

January 25, 2021

i don't feel anxious at the beginning of this week like i did at the beginning of last weekhannah's pizza zinevariation of kumquat called a "limequat"...

it's colder today but it's not going to rain

January 23, 2021

the deep satisfaction of having what felt like a good idea for something at work (after a challenging week) and taking the space to write it down in full...

if you have the ability to get a sumo mandarin, please get one

January 21, 2021

manager didn't show up to a meeting yesterday because she was unexpectedly stuck in traffic so i got to have a nice social call with khgot my antidepressant...

wish i was anxious for respectable national historical reasons

January 20, 2021

felt just spectacularly crappy and anxious (even for me!) yesterday, a bit less so today but still feel like shit, writing this note as a lazy...

this photo of a sunrise or a sunset (not sure which)

January 17, 2021

the interesting quar phenomenon of everybody (including me) constantly looking at their cloud photo app of choice's "{n} years ago today" feature and...

it is friday!

January 15, 2021

it is friday!

however this process may defrag the hard drive of my mind

January 14, 2021

my never-ending love for the dense playful illegal ADD music of girl talk, which neatly dates the particular era of millennial i am, and that i found out,...

another huge "productivity hack" in my tool kit

January 13, 2021

the sound of rain (thank god because there is so much of it here)the child's lunch of a half peanut butter and jelly sandwich on multigrain bread with chips...

fidgeting with things and touching my face

January 12, 2021

one of the better mondays at work in a while: no meetings, i completed the high level tasks i needed to get done that day specifically, i had some nice...

when someone asks about what time period you'd like to live in in the past i say "i would not"

January 11, 2021

i'm thankful for daily hot showers, which are one of many reasons when someone asks about what time period you'd like to live in in the past i say "i would...

egg sando recipe

January 10, 2021

waking up on a saturday morning, eating breakfast, getting very stoned, playing music, having sex, and falling asleep againthis "rising crust" digiorno...

tons of weird supplements/dietary things

January 9, 2021

i wrote up a list of things that helped with my heartburn (a very big theme of the first year or so of the newsletter) for d's friend s and here it is in...

i do always like it when great artists fail

January 8, 2021

i'm thankful i got a raise and, as i do whenever something about salary is involved, i thought of the mad men scene where peggy says don could say thank you...

macaroni chicharrones

January 7, 2021

that thing where you are using a knife irresponsibly (in my case, cubing half a mango in my hand because i was too lazy to clean the garlic-y onion-y cutting...

i don't know what asymptote means

January 6, 2021

MITCH MCCONNELL ISN'T GOING TO BE MAJORITY LEADER ANYMORE FUCK YOU FOREVER YOU EVIL PIECE OF SHIT TURTLE ASS MOTHERFUCKERwhatever the opposite of...

that expression about a broken clock being right twice a day

January 5, 2021

successful hades run on the treadmill (and at the end i also successfully did the fishing minigame, which i almost always fail at, and got a bass, which is...

god mode

January 4, 2021

last night, to try to fend off the post-vacation sunday scaries and give me a "quick win" that would calm my mind, i finally turned on god mode for hades....

something i have repeatedly learned then unlearned then relearned and have relearned again

January 3, 2021

i really needed a new "scrub daddy" because the one i had been using is disintegrating but i forgot that when we were at the grocery store and then d (who...

treat people with kindness

January 2, 2021

the new harry styles video, "treat people with kindness," in which he dances in matching outfits with phoebe waller-bridge. my best surprise christmas gift...

dasein within reach

January 1, 2021

we moved twice when i was in high school for my dad's work and after a relatively normal and happy experience at the first high school, i got to the second...

periods of sunshine in the winter

December 6, 2020

a week and a half away from work and from life an ocean too cold to swim in private fire pit, space heater, a large bathtub periods of sunshine in the winter...

internet doctor

November 25, 2020

internet doctor resubmitted my prozac prescription as three twenty milligram pills my insurer will allow instead of the one sixty milligram tablet the...

we found her in the front yard

November 18, 2020

i'm thankful that though i left the gate to the back yard open after taking out the compost yesterday evening and forgot about it and then later that night...

headphone masterpiece

November 17, 2020

the other day in the car, i remembered cody chesnutt's album the headphone masterpiece, a double album of demos recorded in a bedroom to be heard on a...

moving beyond remote

November 16, 2020

this afternoon i did an erasure of slack's "Moving beyond remote: Workplace transformation in the wake of Covid-19" and this is a recording of me reading it

very weird instagram account

November 16, 2020

this youtube compilation of clips of marc bolan's TV show in the seventiesevery week at the grocery store i look for pomelo, hoping that it will finally be...