thank you notes (moe)(8)

i'm thankful for the weird phase i'm in where i'm not feeling anything. i'm thankful even though my emotions have been on break, my body has not got the memo. i'm thankful pain and my digestive system kept me up last night. i'm thankful because i've tried to regulate my night time routine, it was weird to be up past my bedtime. i'm thankful for the times when my motto was 'sleeping is for the weak'. i'm thankful i spent a lot of the night on twitter. i'm thankful for twitter and how much it makes me laugh and makes me feel connected with my friends. i'm thankful to have learned a lot from people smarter than i am on twitter. i'm thankful to realise things and recognise my privilege in ways i didn't know existed. i'm thankful twitter helps me process my pain and express my feelings. 

i'm thankful for the weird therapy sessions i've had lately. i'm thankful o doesn't make me feel weird. i'm thankful for the time she told me it was the first time she thought i hadn't made sense throughout the session. i'm thankful that helped me realise i was manic. i'm thankful that even if therapy has been weird, it's helped me process a lot of things. i'm thankful for analysis and analysis paralysis. i'm thankful for my renewed love for spreadsheets. i'm thankful everything in my life has a spreadsheet dedicated to it. i'm thankful for life admin, a phrase l and i use. i'm thankful for the emotional labour it takes to pay my bills and stay in contact with people. i'm thankful to remember the pleasure i get from a good spreadsheet. i'm thankful for frivolous spreadsheets. i'm thankful for fashunz, the one for my autumn/winter look. i'm thankful 'fashunz' makes me laugh a whole lot. 

i'm thankful i watched a new episode of the British 'Married at First Sight' yesterday. i'm thankful even though the concept is weird, it perplexes and amuses me. i'm thankful sometimes to see the point of it and to not judge the people who go on it. i'm thankful for this story i wrote a while ago. i'm thankful i only fall in love with people after being friends with them for a while. i'm thankful for arranged marriages and how they intrigue me. i'm thankful for the level of commitment and strength of character it takes to agree to one. i'm thankful to see how being forced to be friends with someone i.e. marriage, in this case could be helpful. i'm thankful, having acknowledged that to know i'll not marry at first sight. 

- moe (10/20/16).

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