i'm thankful that yesterday when we sat down to dinner, d realized that though she had taken her water glass to the kitchen to refill it, but forgotten to refill it because we were talking and left it there on the counter. i'm thankful that then later in the evening, i came into the living room and she thanked me for refilling her glass, even though i hadn't and she had refilled it herself earlier and just forgotten. i'm thankful for moments that reveal to us the way that we can get lost in our own thoughts, that we can be walking through the world and doing things and not be aware of it at all. i'm thankful that she said, laughing, "
i'm thankful to be full of loops too. i'm thankful that though i let myself get too locked in the loop of reading and refreshing and reading and refreshing twitter yesterday evening after dinner and i know that's not good for me, in this case it resulted in khloe kardashian reading and responding to one of my tweets (which was about how she and kourtney kardashian are stuck in their own loop of referencing "damn, daniel" and how that makes me happy). i'm thankful she read something i wrote, to imagine that maybe i could be watching KUWTK and see her, in some scene, looking at her phone and know that she might be in that instant reading words i wrote. i'm thankful to also been followed by nicholson baker yesterday, which feels special even though it seems like he follows anyone follows him. i'm thankful for this fragment of poetry by
heather christle from
pome:
from Disintegration Loop 1.1
"But legally I owe you nothing
i'm thankful that work has been very busy and hard but thankful that both i and my team have been holding it together pretty well. i'm thankful that at a certain point you get so busy that it becomes less stressful, because you have to acknowledge there's no hope of really keeping up and all you can do is all you can do, you are only human. i'm thankful to try to remind myself that's true even when it's not so busy but only normal busy. i'm thankful to have been able to help other coworkers solve problems they were struggling with and thankful to have solved some problems of my own that seemed overwhelming large and were stressing me out.
i'm thankful to remember that if a task seems too large and overwhelming, it's always helpful to step back and break it into smaller pieces and use those smaller pieces as footholds to grasp the larger thing more confidently. i'm thankful that usually it is less busy on fridays and so we might all catch up before the weekend. i'm thankful that seeing my coworker and his wife working on twitch on a game they are making together pushed me to get back to work on
my current personal project, which i had stopped working on because i've been tired in the evenings but which i'm still excited about and want to finish.