(brian)

i'm thankful to have gotten "home" past 1am. i'm thankful that i still had the energy and desire to finish editing a video. i'm thankful that once i was satisfied with the edit, i went straight to bed and got a few hours of rest. i'm thankful for the excitement to upload it to igtv that helped me get out of bed. i'm thankful to have created a video that i really like and shared it online. 

i'm thankful for the texts i received from julia on my way to work. i'm thankful that i pulled over and took the time to thoughtfully read and respond. i'm thankful that while i was feeling like this was a bad idea because i'd be late for work, i looked up to see that a train was crossing up ahead and then felt at ease knowing that even if i didn't pull over, i would have been stopped. i'm thankful that the thought of the texts later made my eyes begin to water. 

i'm thankful that work felt more like play than work. i'm thankful that i subbed for a class of 4 cheerful and excited children. i'm thankful to have seen a shirt with my face on it that i had printed in 2016, being worn by a jack. i'm thankful that my other coworkers took notice and asked me for shirts of their own. i'm thankful that i agreed to have more shirts printed and the excitement that followed that statement. i'm thankful for the confusion i have on why people want to wear a shirt with my face on it. i'm thankful for illyda telling me about her college plans and that i gave her the only advice i really feel okay giving about college, "if you want to drop out, drop out." i'm thankful for the conversation that followed that advice, with evan and illyda, about "making it" as an artist. i'm thankful that i ran into julia on my way out of the building. i'm thankful to have discussed in person what we discussed over text message. i'm thankful to have seen an old student on my way out of the parking lot. i'm thankful to have seen her jump out of the backseat of her mom's car in excitement.

i'm thankful for the man who cut me off very harshly on my way "home". i'm thankful to have not felt upset and scream nonsense vulgarity. i'm thankful that it reminded me of the video i uploaded this morning that mentions that i love getting cut off in traffic. i'm thankful to have experienced a few more "bad drivers" on my way "home" and just laughed the situations off. i'm thankful to have gotten "home" safely. 

i'm thankful to have felt okay with myself taking a break when i got "home". i'm thankful for the documentary that i watched and the nap i took right after. i'm thankful for the bathtub being out of order, forcing me to take a cold sponge bath in the basement, that helped wake me up. i'm thankful for the pizza i ate once clean. i'm thankful for the pain that followed eating a whole large pizza, reminding me that i need to stop doing that. i'm thankful to have texted julia about a tattoo idea that she ultimately was okay with it. i'm thankful for the text from gabrielle, complimenting my video. i'm thankful for this continued downtime that i'm using to write this post.

i'm thankful for all the things i am thankful for that didn't make this post. i'm thankful that i want to cut it here because i want people to not be overwhelmed. i'm thankful that i know people will read this.

- brian, 7/1/18. i'm emotional and excited.