(anonymous)

I'm thankful for difficult conversations. I'm thankful that when I asked a friend what he'd warn a prospective partner about me, he said, "that you're moody". Eventhough it hurt to hear, I'm thankful that he was honest. I'm thankful that when I went on to ask other people in the room, they all seemed to think really hard before answering. I'm thankful that everyone seemed to think I'd make a great partner.

I'm thankful for air-conditioned rooms.

I'm thankful that even with all the sweet words it's the negative ones that kept me from sleeping last night. I'm thankful that after all the tossing and turning and brooding, I finally got three hours of sleep. I'm thankful that I'm taking the day off work. I'm thankful that I sent a message to my boss in the wee hours that I was sick although I didn't specify that it was more emotional than physical. I'm thankful that technically, this isn't a lie. 

I'm thankful for VoiceNotes.

I'm thankful to spend the day at a friend's. To be away from the darkness of my own space. I'm thankful that eventhough I'm alone, the familiarity of my aloneness is somehow absent. So I'm not sure what this is but I'm thankful that it is. 

I'm thankful for candied nuts and oat crackers. 

I'm thankful for K's response when I said I didn't want to be magic but plain; plain yet deserving. I'm thankful that she said, "Darling, I can't help you with that. And I don't know that I would want to. You're going to have to learn to own it and live it. Every day." I'm thankful that I don't know how but I'm willing to try.

- anonymous (6/19/17).