(ani)

i'm thankful for having broken up with my boyfriend of three years on the 26th of May, the day after our 3rd anniversary. i'm thankful to look back on our relationship and see his manipulative and narcissistic tendencies. i'm thankful to still feel love towards him even when i know he's only been in love with me and nothing more. i am thankful to have realized most people just want to spend time and be physical with their SOs instead of actually being friends with them. i'm thankful that now i know i should look for more mature people and release the immature ones from my life. i'm thankful to be moving abroad in less than a week to study psychology. i'm thankful to be excited for meeting new people and actually learning by doing. i'm thankful i do not need my ex-bf's constant validation any longer and i am thankful that whenever i reach out to him i feel hurt due to his disinterest in me. i'm thankful to have loved and to still do, to have been hurt because of this love and to be slowly getting over the hurt, lies and the relationship as a whole. i'm thankful for all the new music i've been listening to - most of it being slow edm type of songs, like JP Cooper's All this love and Daya's Safe. i'm thankful for The Vamps and Years and Years, both groups I recently discovered and for SHINee - my all-time favorite band with their amazing vocals and how they are recovering after Jonghyun's suicide (one of their main vocals). i'm thankful for their Japanese singles like "every time", "always love", "fire" and "winter wonderland". Also for "Stand by me". I am thankful that Taemin from the same group was a male lead in a Japanese drama in which I enjoy how awkward he is and how the Japanese way of showing emotions and memories is different than the western one. i'm thankful to have realized i have friends who care about me even when i was focused only on my ex and if he cares/d about me. i'm thankful to have met a very wise and intelligent man, who sensed what i was going through and with whom i had an amazing conversation about energy, psychology, phrenology, sport, music, law of attraction, history, folklore and dance. i'm thankful he will lend me a book about the 5 most common traumas rooted in a person's childhood. i'm thankful to finally feel okay after almost three months. i'm thankful to have gone to a concert where i relaxed without alcohol and danced and had fun alone, with myself and to have met new people even only for the duration of the event. i'm thankful to have found out about Adina River's breathing techniques and sensual body workout since i have been feeling unsexy and uncomfortable in my skin due to the pressure my ex put upon me to look and behave perfectly. i'm thankful i am starting to love myself again and to search for my identity as a person. i'm thankful to know this whole ordeal was a teenage one and i am working on letting it go. i'm thankful for the feeling of being strong and independent and happy alone. i'm thankful for being.