a place where you are no longer "about to throw up"

i'm thankful for how after you get very nauseous and throw up (as i did last night, insult to injury* (or punishment for overmedicating) after having an unrelatedly shitty day) and there is this fucked up time dilation such that the amount of time projecting out into the future in which you will continue to be very nauseous and may throw up again, even if you know that it must be finite, feels functionally forever, and that therefore it seems your entire energy and force of will have to be be focused on not throwing up again for what feels like forever and you are normally a person who is not trying to be "alone with your thoughts" but it's too dangerous to read or watch a video and that makes it feel even more endless but i'm thankful that eventually (PLEASE) you poll of your consciousness and realize that you've hit an inflection point and crossed some invisible border to a place where, even if you don't feel amazing, you are no longer "about to throw up" and crossing that border is one of the feelings i am most grateful for in the world!