9/7/16

i'm thankful that though yesterday was kind of a hard day because i was dealing with some difficult customers that just kept coming back to me with newer and harder problems and not listening to the solutions that i gave them for those problems, it ended eventually. i'm thankful for something d noticed when we were talking about something hard she had to deal with at work, which is that when i have a "bad day" now, it's all down to the particular customers i draw from the deck in the given day and not by larger problems with management or coworkers or the organization, which is a huge positive change from my last job, where those macro level things were my primary problem (i'm so grateful to work where i work). i'm thankful that there was one really nice and polite customer who had a very hard problem and i'm thankful i was able to eventually figure out the solution and he responded with exuberant happiness and gratitude. i'm thankful to try to focus on feelings like that and not the ones that vex me. i'm thankful that when i was tired in the middle of the day i took my lunch break and stood in a hot shower in the dark for 30 minutes, which was restorative.

i'm thankful that i haven't been doing much extra work in the evenings (even though i'm really excited about the project i'm working on now) and have been watching lots of TV with d. i'm thankful for this week's episode of insecure, which continued to impress me with it's ability to go far into hard places and then go further. i'm thankful for the characters, who i love even though they often frustrate me with their actions (all of them have seemingly great relationships that they seem determined to ruin)(though this most recent episode made me question whether the relationships they're ruining are as great as i thought). i'm thankful for season 2, episode 5 of eastbound and down, which is pretty perfect comedy. i'm thankful for these outtakes with will ferrell doing extended ridiculous metaphors about his testicles as plums, which i think will make you laugh if you need one (i'm thankful for how he says the phrase "bluish hue").  

i'm thankful for kylee's essay about the eclipse. i'm thankful for this girl in a tie dye t-shirt gleefully flipping off an infowars reporter. i'm thankful for this wild report on the rulers of micronations. i'm thankful that i had an idea for an art project for d that she liked. i'm thankful for cassandra gillig's mashup of a drake beat with ashbery's "the skaters" (i'm thankful for all of her pop/poetry mashups, especially the alice notley/justin timberlake "at night the mirrors," which i have written about here before). i'm thankful that d keeps me supplied with images of sleepy shibes and a baby red panda drinking from a tiny milk bottle. i'm thankful that though chrome just crashed for one of the myriad reasons chrome crashes, gmail saves drafts very often and i didn't lose anything. i'm thankful that in this case the benefits of one google product offset the problems with another. i'm thankful for this summer poem by harris wittels, which i had never heard before.