7/13

i'm thankful that though d is going to be gone on a business trip next week and that is usually a period of sadness and worry for me, to feel glad that at least i'm going into that feeling good. i'm thankful that yesterday i was reminded of american vandal, which is a show that made me laugh very hard and would be worth revisiting, as would the early arrested development, which i was reminded of last night when we were watching mad men during the period where peggy's boyfriend is a total dip (or i guess i should say one of the periods, since peggy has several dip boyfriends) and everybody around her seems to imply that with their interactions a la the running joke in AD where michael can't remember ann's name. i'm thankful to have forgot that zosia mamet who played shosanna on girls has a role in mad men season 4 and to still be retroactively angry about how little shoshanna there was in the last season of girls.

i'm thankful for this skateboard video and for the feeling i have whenever i watch skateboard videos, which is the feeling that there is no physical skill i'd rather have than to be able to skateboard like this, the grace and control and the ability to be so connected to the physics of a situation that it's like you can bend the rules a little bit (i'm thankful that because of its associations with graffiti, a form of detournement, to think of skateboarding as a kind of detournement of the air, of space, of time and gravity), and yet also the feeling, at the same time, that i do not like pain and i would never go through the pain required to even begin to do a fraction of the things that real skateboarders can do. i'm thankful for videos, which use editing and slow motion and music to let me vicariously get a tiny piece of what the sensation must be.

i'm thankful that d and i were watching one of the many instagram dog feeds she follows and looking at a video of a puppy and to have thought about how most puppy faces, because they're so small and mushed together, have very little expressivity versus the face of an adult dog, which has a much fuller range of expressions and personality, and yet how puppies generally have a greater sense of static cuteness. i'm thankful for another video i was watching of someone who was dog sitting two dogs and one dog finished his food much earlier than the other and so the video pans from the second dog still enjoying eating to the other dog who is across the room lying down and staring longingly at the first dog eating, which the person captioned with "classic ate-too-fast regrets." i'm thankful we ate the last of our dinner leftovers for the week yesterday which means we can get takeout or delivery tonight—i'm thankful to be able to afford takeout or delivery on a friday night.