i'm thankful for my normal life, which in contrast to how this vacation is going seems, for all i complain about it and struggle through it and feel unhappy, quite wonderful.
i'm thankful that the frequent discomfort of this vacation help me to better appreciate the comfort of the life that d and i have built together.
i'm thankful to do my best to appreciate nice moments that i experience here but also to accept myself when i am tired or frustrated or upset and not introduce meta-feelings about those feelings.
i'm thankful for milk shaved into ribbons and covered in fruit in syrup. i'm thankful for the way its layers compress under your spoon like thick snow underfoot.
i'm thankful for the moment yesterday when i stood on the edge of a mountain and looked very far into the distance.
i'm thankful to experience the sound of d laughing with her family, which is different than the way she laughs with me but beautiful in its own way.
i'm thankful that this will all eventually end. i'm thankful to try harder to make the best of it before it does.