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i'm thankful to have learned that virginia woolf and leonard woolf were super disgusting to the point where he had a pet marmoset that would go to the bathroom down his back. i'm thankful to have found my spirit animal. i'm thankful for this video of "your boyfriend" which is so specific and yet universal at the same time. i'm thankful for the migos in therapy sketch from saturday night live, which is still making me laugh.

i'm thankful that lately the weeks at work go by very fast. i'm thankful that though in the past, at my job at the university where my responsibilities were very limited, that would have seemed like a relief, whereas now, when the week is this space into which i am trying to cram ever more projects and meetings and etc., that actually i wish i could make things slow down a bit, but i'm thankful that i have been working harder since i got back to have better work/life balance and not to try to keep up with all the things i'm trying to cram into the week by doing work in the evenings and on the weekends, because i do not want to burn out.

i'm thankful that as of today i have officially stopped taking the last antidepressant i was on, which made me feel slow and unfocused in addition to not getting rid of my anxiety, and that my mind has been feeling clearer and sharper every day. i'm thankful that though there were some unpleasant side effects coming down off of it, they really weren't that bad. i'm thankful that the beta blockers i'm on now, even though i want to try a higher dose, do seem to be helping tamp down my anxiety, though i will have to go longer to really know, i think. 

i'm thankful for this nice essay featuring a nice poem by carol ann duffy. i'm thankful for this balm by jane hirshfield. i'm thankful for john berger on cy twombly. i'm thankful for 2 chainz on himself. i'm thankful for tessa thompson on an account that compares pictures of her to pictures of goats.