5/19

i'm thankful that i don't have to have any social interactions with anyone besides d for a while for a while. i'm thankful to have had fun at the parties and dinners for d's team retreat last week, and that i think when i want to be and try to be and take sufficient drugs to help me be i am charming and friendly and fun to be around at parties and dinners, but i'm also thankful to recharge my batteries and be very antisocial for a while. i'm thankful that this upcoming week we will just have fish and roasted vegetables for dinner after all the excesses of the previous week (i'm thankful that i can now afford to have this "healthy" but expensive dinner). i'm thankful for the lox bagel sandwich i just had for lunch; i'm thankful for cream cheese and red onion and especially for capers, which i would never think of when thinking of my "favorite foods" but really are one of my favorite foods (i'm thankful for briny things) and something i should use in more contexts. i'm thankful to have started reading the overstory, which has quite an interesting narrative style and has so far hooked me, a person who does not know much or generally care much about particular trees. i'm thankful for the lineage of characters in the first chapter who take a picture of a chestnut tree every month for decades, a bigger and bigger stack showing the small changes as the tree becomes more and more embedded into its environment. i'm thankful to take pictures with words of the tree that is myself.