12/8/19

i'm thankful that on friday, d and i threw the first party we've ever thrown together at home. i'm thankful that my friends came over we had a good variety of drinks and food and weed and that my impromptu home karaoke system worked well. i'm thankful that though e (my karaoke sensei) and i had planned to do a lorde pairing (her doing "liability" and me doing "writer in the dark") and i'm thankful that d also decided to sing "sober" (i'm thankful that she did "venice bitch" as her first song) and s did "green light" (as well as an epic "i put a spell on you"). i'm thankful for k's eminem and spice girls and i'm thankful that kh showed up as a late surprise. i'm thankful for "starman" and "cruel to be kind". i'm thankful for pudding cake and gummies and pizza and chips and sours and the excellent concentrate that t brought. i'm thankful that miso got more attention than she has ever gotten in her life (and provided occasional greek chorus yawps and coughs along with the songs) and, when everybody left after midnight, she immediately passed out on the couch. 

i'm thankful that we didn't do anything or go anywhere yesterday and felt very cuddly and soft and restful. i'm thankful to have read this week's issue of the new yorker (the strongest one in a while IMO) in one sitting and then fallen into a nap in a bean bag chair. i'm thankful we started watching this season of mr. robot, which i understand even more barely than ever but which, even without understanding, still functions as a paranoiac techno thriller tone poem. i'm thankful to have finished reading watchmen, which i only wish was longer. i'm thankful for lazy yoga done for the first time in a while after doing nothing all day. i'm thankful for the emily dickinson biography i am reading after getting inspired by dickinson. i'm thankful for indomie instant noodles, which d has gotten me hopelessly addicted to. i'm thankful we went to h mart and got, among other things, some barbecue dried squid, such a mainstay for me for so long and something i will chew until my jaw aches. i'm thankful for altoids. i'm thankful that there's a new coffee & tv (https://coffeeandtv.substack.com/p/coffee-and-tv-broad-cityflorida-girls) and that emily gould has a limited series tinyletter about bridget jones's diary (https://bridgetjonessdiarydiary.substack.com/archive?utm_source=menu-dropdown) and for chloe's paean to garlic breadcrumbs (