11/14

i'm thankful that in my old age i better appreciate videos of cute animals than i did when i was younger and more closed off to this kind of beauty. i'm thankful for this cat sitting on a fake laptop. i'm thankful for this kitten with curly hair. i'm thankful for rows of chubby puppies. i'm thankful for this baby lion learning to roar.

i'm thankful for this poem about envy. i'm thankful to recognize that i am often envious of the success of others, even when that success has no effect on my own ability to succeed, which i know is something to work on because it doesn't feel good to envy, even though i also know that sometimes that envy drives me to strive to improve myself, which isn't isn't always bad.

i'm thankful for the series finale of vice principals, which was surprising and moving and hilarious. i'm thankful for danny mcbride and walton goggins. i'm thankful when two actors have chemistry together, which is such an intangible and hard to grasp or describe thing but which is so meaningful and good.

i'm thankful to have continued having a psychedelic experience with react, which a week ago i found inscrutable and frightening and now is something i think about all the time, components interlocking with other components and dancing in the side streets of my mind. i'm thankful that i just need to grasp how to handle async actions with middleware and then i think i'll understand everything i need to do the project i'm sketching out now. 

i'm thankful that since it is cold and i don't feel like running outside and i really struggle to keep running on a treadmill with just music or a podcast as i can outside, d was able to find her old ipad and i have recharged it so that i can watch things on the treadmill while running. i'm thankful the last two runs to have been watching jack reacher: never change, which is ridiculous and fun and good to run along to. i'm thankful for bad movies.