I’ve spent most of today watching people I admire flaying Adin Ross for being disrespectful to Doechii repeatedly on his livestreams. I don’t keep up with streaming culture, the only people whose streams I watch are people who do some other kind of work I engage with. But streaming culture is important to be aware of. Kids want to be livestreamers, and especially like the biggest ones who get up to comedy movie antics to get clicks. Adin Ross is a pretty nondescript guy who hangs out with random celebrities, but he’s wandered into controversy by getting deep into Doechii hate.

I hate guys like Adin, and I know many guys like Adin who don’t have millions of followers enabling their aggressive aimlessness and delusions of importance. Guys like Adin Ross or fellow wunderkind of audacity xQc are only admirable in their shamelessness. They have no shame in their pursuit of doing anything for a buck. As somebody who cares about what kind of energy I’m projecting outwards with anything I do creatively it can be infuriating to observe the recklessness and brazenness by which guys like these attain fame and success. But I let this hate give me power, even if only for just a moment, to wrap it around into a declaration of will.

Seeing so many people I respect turn clear animosity into insight is a very inspiring thing. I’ve spent all day thinking about what I want to be doing with my creative work and how I want to be moving through the space as I get the podcast thing going again. The holidays put me in a creative slump as I spent much more time being present for Christmas engagements, but it’s time to get back at it after a little rest. The New Years Resolution is to put more out there than I ever have. I’ve got ideas cooking both for this column and for my work over at Jams & Tea, so get ready.