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hi everybody!
it has been hell on Earth in my sliver of southern California for the past two weeks or so, but we are finally coming out of it. we were hit with the hottest week of the year, reaching a whopping 113 degrees Fahrenheit, which was just lovely of course. the heat spurred on three different massive wildfires, which happen to form a triangle around the county I live in. it has been raining ash for many, many days now. so evidently we’re doing great.
thankfully after summer’s last hurrah, we are finally in the throes of California fall weather, a delightful 68-83 degrees every day, accompanied by clear skies. soon enough the Wind will be here, which I do not look forward to at all, but I am so glad the heat is over.
these emails are meant to go out when I post something new on my blog, and I have, but that was several days ago and I owe you all an email every Monday. so enjoy this one on Friday and you’ll get another on Monday, even if I don’t post lol. maybe this will be the newsletter?
I’m writing this in the middle of the night as I bs my work trainings which have a specific amount of time that you must at least spend reading/going through the course. and as my eyes begin to burn from staring at my desktop screen for far too long, far too late, I come to you with some thoughts.
I really hate the choreography for TTYL by Loossemble.
I want to see Raveena and Tinashe in concert next month so bad.
I need a monthly music video night with my friends, no matter what.
in more relevant news..
I’m no longer doing teaching, as discussed in this post. not rehashing that here, but just be aware of this new development.
for quite a while now, I’ve felt that I am very much over school. it was thrilling when I first started last spring, but it has gotten so tiring and I went through pretty-serious burnout last year. I’ve figured out now that my problems with school are that 1) I keep overloading my schedule and 2) I really can’t stand online classes.
I dropped like three of my classes for this semester last week and currently I am only keeping my earth science lecture + lab and intermediate ceramics. and I’m like very happy with that. ceramics is still giving me a bit of stress, but I think it’s because it’s hybrid. all of the classes I’ve done my best in have been wholly in-person, not hybrid in any manner. it is SO HARD to find a non-hybrid class now! not to be all kim k “nobody wants to work anymore” but like damn, don’t professors get paid more to be in person? please, clock in twice a week!
but, to be fair, I already really loved geology so I was always going to enjoy this class. but I loooooove that all the work is done then and there, in class, with nothing to look at on canvas when I get home.
more exciting things
I have to teach my kids at work basic film photography, which I myself don’t even fully understand so if anyone has any pointers or books or videos I can take in please please please send them through LMAO.
we’re using Kodak Ektar H35s because I didn’t want them using disposables and I’d like for them to be able to keep them and reload them with film.
now that I’ve been off social media for a week or two, I’ve found that my thoughts are differently structured now. I used to think in little quips like my brain was my twitter feed. now my thoughts are flowing and well-developed, which is really fun. I’m more tapped in now.
I posted a ton last week on bearblog, if you were checking on it, you’d see how much I was on. I think that was also the no-social-media jitters where I was just itching for online interaction. but in the time I haven’t posted, I’ve found that that itch has worn down a lot and I’m more aware of it as an itch and not as a thing I need to constantly be doing.
social media brain is hard to get yourself out of, especially when bearblog and platforms like substack have stuff like upvote or like buttons. and maybe even worse, a trending page. when your goal in creating a personal site is to express yourself and, in turn, have your thoughts heard, it can be addicting to try to get yourself seen through these algorithms and noticed by others. it’s honestly exhausting and I want to keep myself from looking at it completely.
but we’ll see. I know there’s a way to hide how many users have upvoted your post so I’ll add that to the blog soon.
but yeah, that’s all from me tonight. I’ll see you… Monday? probably? maybe.
I hope you're having a good day. take care of yourself, bye-bye! <3