i guess we’re doing emails now
hi everybody!
it’s been a lonnngggg time. but we’re back! many things have changed, so here’s the rundown:
I deleted my social media.
crazy right? wrote about it on my newest blog post (read now!), so you get the gist. to my friends who did not hear about this before, this is the announcement lol. no more instagram, no twitter, no creeping around on tumblr, nothing. phone and head empty.
but why? you may ask.
well, I have a lot of hopes for changes I’ll make now that I’m offline. here’s a sweet little list of those hopes
1) I’ll be better about getting my classwork done
I’ve been terrible about getting my work done for school this year, half because of burnout, half because of wanting to be on my phone all day, every day. nothing to do on my phone → more time to do my classwork, I’m hoping
2) I’ll spend more time on things that matter
if you did not know already, I have a somewhat costly gym membership that I pay for every month. do I go? no. haven’t gone since march this year. why? I’m too exhausted to go a lot of the time, and when I’m not exhausted, I’m scrolling on my phone excessively.
but past the gym, this also applies to my real-life communities. not only does doomscrolling take up my time, but being chronically online drastically changes the way I interact with others. I’m more biting and judgemental, I’m never really listening, I’m always thinking about what I could tweet out about the situation I’m currently in, and I’m out of sync with the people around me because I somehow have come to believe I’m too esoteric to relate to them. it’s exhausting and honestly humiliating. I don’t want to be that!
I want to meaningfully engage with the people around me and actually be involved in the world around me. it’s hard to do that when you have internet speak rushing around your head all of the time.
3) I’ll be able to engage in current and new hobbies
I want to be a reader! and not the booktok kind. I want to redevelop my taste and find satisfaction in finishing a good book. the only thing I’ve been able to stomach reading in recent times is fanfiction, which is a hell in itself.
I’ve also been saying foreverrrrr that I want to start dance classes. and I will. I feel like social media drives you to be judgemental to others but also to yourself, I have this sort of mind block in engaging with new hobbies or exercises because of how embarrassing they may be. I really don’t like this! so I’m hoping not being exposed to Instagram bodies and hateful pessimistic tweets will reduce this needless worry.
sooooooo… yeah.
if you had me on social media, you’ll be seeing less of me. if you’ve been following my blog, you’ll be seeing more of me. exciting, right? I’m planning on sending out a newsletter every week to alert you of my blog posts and also just tell you about my goings-on, so keep an eye out.
I think it will be more meaningful to post like this rather than to post constantly at every moment. I’ll be more mindful about what I’m expressing and in how I navigate situations. I will be a better person coming out of all this.
since I’m not online I’ll be more out of touch with pop culture than ever before, so when I ask for new music recs or what’s been going on, please do me a favor and email me back so I know.
and who knows? maybe I’ll be back online in a few years. I hope you’ll stick around to see me then, too.
I hope you're having a good day. take care of yourself, bye-bye! <3